Playing with fire Reader x Sapnap

chapter 4

Hearing this shocked and angered me.

"WHAT?" Sapnap exclaimed. I grabbed his hand knowing it would comfort me. I took deep breaths. Seeing this sapnap realized I wasn't ok.

"Devin, how could you." I said.

"Listen [y/n] it's not like that. I came here to tell you the truth, they think I'm here to collect you or something. I'm so sorry. I never wanted this for you." Devin admitted.

"I'm sorry for accusing you, it's just a lot to process." I told him. Devin nodded. I felt sapnap squeeze my hand.

"I am also sorry again because I have to leave. I decided to make this quick so that I can just say I got lost because the coordinates were off." Devin said.

"Okay just, stay safe. Thankyou, so much." I told him. Sapnap who had been quiet till then opened up.

"Thankyou Devin." Sapnap said.

"Goodbye." Devin said before turning around and entering the portal. Devin left and I didn't know how much longer I could go without crying. How dare they. I thought they were dead. I would've thought those people would be grateful to find I was still alive. I was so happy to know I had a family when all along all it meant was this? A family who used me for a business advantage. When I was a little girl I cried for years over their deaths. All the nights I laid awake wondering about them as a teenager and this is what I get from it? They didn't want me, they'd rather marry me off. What was wrong with me that they didn't want me?

"[y/n]? Hey, it's ok." Sapnap said, noticing the tears that were starting to form.

"Sapnap, how could they do this?" I asked him desperately. I couldn't keep it in. I was filled with too much emotion. My legs felt weak. I couldn't hold myself up anymore. I crumbled to the floor. Tears began falling.

"Hey, listen we're gonna go to my house is that ok?" Sapnap said. His tone was gentle and caring. I nodded. I couldn't get up though. I felt pathetic. I was too panicked to move. Sapnap seemed to understand. He bent down and picked me up. I wrapped my arms around his neck while he carried me to his house. I felt bad because he had to go quite a ways before making it to his house but he didn't seem to mind or be very tired from it. I buried my face into his shoulder. "I know, beautiful it's okay." Sapnap said quietly. I was thankful for him.

It wasn't until that moment that I realized just how much I took advantage of him. I hadn't actually understood how much having him meant to me. We finally reached his house. When we got inside he gently set me down on his bed. He grabbed me a cup of water and sat down next to me. I calmed down some. "Sapnap why would they do that?" I said.

"I don't know how they could do that to someone like you. You are worth more than any business advantage." he responded.

"I cried and wondered about them for years. I felt so guilty for not going to meet them. I blamed myself when I thought they died." I told him. He listened intently.

"You aren't worried that you have to marry someone are you?" he asked. I hadn't thought about that. I hadn't signed anything and I'm pretty sure here philza is my guardian.

"Not really." I said.

"Good. I can't bear the thought of it myself. You, going off and marrying some other guy." sapnap said.

"Other?"

"I didn't mean it like that." He responded.

"If I did, would you fight for me?" I asked. I was playing with fire and I knew it. He nodded.

"Of course I would. I can't imagine having to live without you." He admitted. He pulled me into his lap and held me. I leaned into him, then he played with my hair. We sat in a comforting silence. I took a deep breath.

"I can't imagine it either." I told him.

"Yea I can't imagine not being able to see a face this attractive ever again." he said with a chuckle.

"When was the last time you looked in a mirror?" I retorted.

"I was kidding. I know the real reason you only spend time with me is because I'm the only person who knows how to make food just the way you like it." He said, causing me to giggle.

"Exactly. Who else would make me a sandwich with the right proportions of ingredients or bring me my coffee with the right amount of creamer at an adequate temperature. Plus they wouldn't let me steal bites of their food from them." I told him.

(Hi reader, im changing the verb tense because i can't stand the way it is now)

"I see how it is." He says. I need this. He knew how to lighten the situation and make me feel better. He brought my low up with humor. I snuggled further into his chest and he laughed.

Sapnap pov

[y/n] snuggles in closer to me. I loved holding her, it's cliche but I had my world in my arms. I want so badly to tell her how I feel. That I don't want this to be platonic, but she's emotionally vulnerable. I can't do that to her. "Wanna go for a walk?" I ask.

"No, I like being in your arms." [y/n] says. I want to tell her so bad it's eating away at me more and more. I hold her a little tighter and she hums in approval. "We can go get cookies from nikki." I offer. It's not that I don't like having her in my arms, it's just that I can't handle being in that position without telling her. She pulls back and looks at me

"Can we get brownies instead?" she asks. Her question was so cute. I readjust a piece of hair behind her ear.

"Of course Beautiful." I say.

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