Playing with fire Reader x Sapnap

Chapter 42

  It was about half an hour past 5 a.m. of the day before Schlatt had to make his decision. I had to leave early to sneak Tubbo into Lmanburg. We were planning on going to pogtopia to update everyone on what was going on. Tubbo and I had reached the mine rail and were on our way to Pogtopia. We reached our destination around six. To my surprise the light in Ranboo's shack was on and pouring light into the surrounding land.

I walked up the steps to the shack with tubbo and knocked on the door. A second later the door opened and Tubbo nearly knocked Ranboo over when he ran to give him a hug. "HI ENDERBOY!" Tubbo yells.

"Tubbo hush you're going to wake everyone up." Ranboo says.

"I don't care!" Tubbo shouts still hugging him. I giggled and smiled at Ranboo.

"Hey [y/n]!" Ranboo says. I said hi back. Ranboo, Tubbo, and I sat in his shack and talked until about 7. Then I went to see phil and techno. When I entered the house the room was filled with the comforting scent of bacon and eggs.

I was greeted by Techno and Phil. Phil was making breakfast. A minute later wilbur shuffled down the stairs. "Hi [y/n]!" Wilbur calls.

"Hi Will! I have a letter for you!" I say. Wilbur gives me a weak smile. I was so happy to see everyone that I hadn't even noticed Wilburs appearance. This was the most disheveled and messy I had ever seen wilbur look before. His under eye bags had grown and his hair was very messy. His clothes looked dirty and out of place. It made me do a double take.

"Oh?" Wilbur responds. I reach into my back pocket and grab the letter then hand it to him. Wilbur quickly opens the envelope and reads the piece of paper in front of me. I watch as his facial expression goes from an excited one to a broken one.

"Will?" I say. Wilbur puts down the letter and before I can react he hugs me.

"[y/n] she. . ." Wilbur begins to say. I reluctantly hug him back. He clearly needed emotional support. Wilbur looks past my shoulder and sees phil and techno in the kitchen both giving him a confused look. Wilbur pulls away then grabs my arm and leading me upstairs into his room. "Nikki, she- said she can't handle being in a relationship." Wilbur says on the verge of tears.

"Oh Will." I say. I pull him back into a hug. I also had bad news to tell him but it would have to wait. Wilbur and I sat in his room and talked for a solid hour. I did my best to help him through everything. We composed a letter to write back. Then Phil called us for breakfast. I went down to the kitchen and Philza sent me back upstairs to wake up tommy.

I went into our room and gently shook him awake. "Tommy?" I say quietly.

"Mmm, five more minutes." Tommy protests.

"Tommy Tubbo's downstairs." I say. Tommy immediately sits up.

"Really?" He asks. I nod. Tommy got up and out of bed.

"Yeah c'mon. Phil made breakfast." I say. We headed downstairs and took our seats at the table. I told them about everything going on in Lmanburg and Tubbo shared his near death experience. Wilbur seemed very invested. After Tubbo finished he looked at me.

"[y/n] Will Quackity be president when all is said and done?" He asks. I shook my head. Fuck. I don't think he can handle this right now. I still can't lie to him.

"I don't know yet Wilbur, probably. Things have changed." I say. I didn't want to sugar coat either.

"They've changed and I couldn't be there to change with them." Wilbur says quietly. I had a hard time maintaining eye contact with him. I saw disparity flash in his eyes.

"Wilbur I'm so sorry." I say quietly. Wilbur shook his head softly.

"It's not your fault [y/n]." He says. Wilbur stood up and left the table. I was surprised when Philza didn't protest.

"I'm worried about him." Techno says.

"Let's not worry about it right now." Philza says. I could tell Phil was definitely worried however. We finished breakfast and then Techno and I cleaned up. Tubbo and Tommy ran off somewhere while Techno and I talked. I told him I needed to go find Wilbur then we could start doing some training.

I went upstairs but couldn't find Wilbur. I looked all around the house but didn't find him. I knew where he was. He was in a place where he knew only I could find him. Remember that story I had about Wilbur being my first kiss? Here it comes. Its not as interesting as it might sound sorry to anyone who had there hopes up.

Wilbur and I were still curious teenagers. The lake where we swim has a waterfall. Not far behind the waterfall is a little cave. When we were growing up there was a period of time where Wilbur and I did everything together. Next to Tommy he was my best friend. One day I hurt myself practicing shooting my bow. Wilbur was there and carried me to the nearby cave. He'd helped bandage me and was there to dry my tears. Once I was done crying Wilbur and I made eye contact. Something about the moment compelled us. Wilbur leaned forward and I did the same. We kissed. The kiss was brief but felt wrong. He wasn't a bad kisser or anything it just didn't feel right. We pulled away and he said it also felt like that kiss was meant for someone else. We continued to grow up close friends and thankfully the experience didn't make anything awkward between us. It did however turn that little spot behind the waterfall into a secret meeting place of ours. I hadn't been there in years. I guess it was time to pay a visit.

When I reached the waterfall I heard Wilbur playing his guitar. It took a moment for him to realize I was there with him. "Have you come to see me out of pity?" He asked continuing to play his music.

"Nope. I came to make sure you were okay." I say.

"It feels like you came out of pity." He says.

"If you didn't want me to come then you wouldn't have gone to the one place where only I can find you." I respond. I sat on the cave floor near him.

"I guess you're right." Wilbur replies. I sit in silence for a moment and listen to the playing of his guitar and the sound of running water. "Part of me wishes I was back in a simpler time. Who am I kidding. All of me wishes I was in a simpler time. When Lmanburg had yet to gain independence and you and I were still wild teenagers." Wilbur says softly.

"Me too." I say. Wilbur starts to play a song he told me he'd written called 'For Memories'. I'd heard it before. It was one of my favorites of his. When he finished the song he stopped playing all together. He set his guitar to the side and made eye contact with me. It was like I was watching his spirit fade away before my eyes.

"Wanna know something I haven't told anyone yet." I say softly. For a second I was nervous about admitting this to him. However, he clearly needed a distraction.

"What is it?" He says. I could tell I'd peaked his curiosity.

"I lost my virginity." I said. Wilbur was probably the only person who I would feel comfortable talking about this too. Wilbur tilted his head.

"Was he good?" Wilbur asks genuinely. Heat rushed to my cheeks and I giggled.

"Yea." I answer. I started to tell wilbur things I couldn't tell Tommy or Ranboo. Things that I could only open up about to another adult. He sat and listened to everything I told him with genuine interest. I told him about how I felt about Sapnap or how crazy my growing popularity was and how I had to deal with it emotionally. Occasionally he would add comments that made me laugh. It felt good knowing I had someone who cared to listen to all the details about my life.