Can You Love Me Too?(Monsta X Fanfiction)

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Min Kookie POV*

Today Cravity has to practice again with Monsta X but only until afternoon, Monsta X have no schedule after lunch and as for Cravity they have schedule this afternoon with their vocal trainor and their choreographer. While they're practicing I called the social services but they just told me to go there after lunch, I told Cravity that I won't be able to accompany them in the afternoon because I have to go to social services, Serim said sadly he couldn't drive me and then Monsta X said they'll drive me. As much as I wanted to say no but suddenly Serim said thank you to Monsta X and that they should take care of me. I was really nervous, I don't know if I will be able to find my brother or not. I don't know if I should be happy or not, a lot of things going through my mind. I called my mom last night

Flash back

As I sat on my room I decided to call my mom, "Hello, Umma?" I said and she weakly said "Hi love" I can't contain myself I started to tear up as I heard my own mother weakly saying Hi Love I asked my mom why the hospital where I am born called me and talking about my background, when the fact that I didn't bother much. And my mom replied "Sweetie, Umma is very sick I don't know if how long will I live. Before I die, I want you to know about your background so that I can die peacefully." And I replied "Umma jebal don't say that, I will still have to get married, you still have to walk me down in aisle umma, jebal. Umma by the way the nurse who called me said I have a older brother, did you know about that?" And my mom answered "really? Then that is a good news, sweetie you need to find him so that someone will take care of you when I die, promise me you'll do whatever it takes to find your brother. If you find him don't forget to introduce him to me, I have to make sure, i'll leave you in good hands" and I cried I told my mom that I love her so much and that she has to stay strong. I will keep sending her money for her chemo. My mom's bestfriend is the one taking care of her since Dad have died years ago. My mom has to fly to America to recieve a better treatment for her illness she flew with her bestfriend which is my Godmother, and I was forced to live alone here, luckily my late grandparents left me a condo which is gone now and the old car that dad had gave me, my mom has to sell the car that dad brought before he died, she even sell our house so that she will be able to go back to states to recieve a better treatment. I kept crying while listening to my mom. I love my mom she raised me and loved me like her own daughter even if I didn't came from her womb. "I gotta go love, I need to take a rest now, your auntie will be back soon from the hospital canteen, take care of yourself and of your health arraseo? I love you always and I miss you so much." I kept crying quietly until I fell asleep

End of Flash Back

I can't help but to think about what my mom said last night. I really have to find my brother and stop being nervous. At lunch time we all had delivery once again and we are all eating all together, the boys from Cravity wanted pizza so we ordered Pizza I only ate 1 slice of Pizza considering I don't have an appetite. Jungmo noticed it and budge Wonjin, Taeyoung also noticed and said "Noona are you on diet? Noona you are already sexy enough" I blushed and I said "aish this kiddo! What are you talking about? Me, sexy? No thank you, i'm too ugly to be sexy, plus I ain't on a diet I am just not hungry yet" Wonjin can't contain and started laughing then he said "Oopps Mianhae, I can't help myself you're too funny Noona, you are not ugly, you're very beautiful. You can pass as an idol. I wonder why you are not an idol yet, considering you're great at singing" aish this kiddo have the audacity to exposed me to his group mates and to Monsta X. I was cooking breakfast one time for Cravity and I started singing. Taeyoung caught me, I told him not to tell anyone about it. I don't like people knowing that I can sing because the problem is I am not confident with myself, I still do think that I am not good in singing, besides I only sing when I am cooking breakfast, that's it. Kihyun started begging me to sing and the rest has joined in. Everyone looked at me with a pleading look so I started singing

nae jeonbuin neoreul ilko nan dwi
miryeoni mandeun naye hwansangi
nareul deo olgamaeeo negeseo meolge hae
churakhadeut ppajyeodeureo gipsugi pagodeuneun
Dream bulleojwo you jabajwo you
i sungan soge tago deureo
jeoldae kkaeeonal su eopneun dream
bulleojwo you jabajwo hwansangiljirado

Everyone was in awe they started smiling and clapping. Shownu said that I was in the level of Kihyun because I got to hit Kihyun's high note/falsetto and I got shy so I hid my face on my palms and Cravity started teasing me and saying I should audition and I just simply said no. I love being Cravity's manager. I never wanted to be an idol honestly that will be too terrifying for me. After lunch Jooheon started dragging me away to the practice room, in all honesty who wouldn't want to be dragged away by Jooheon specially if he'll hold your wrist, I tried to let go and said I can handle myself I started walking when someone holds my right hand and when I looked up it was Hyungwon who's holding my hand. I am seriously blushing so hard right now. Who wouldn't love the feeling of your crush holding your hand while walking. As much as I wanted to let go, I couldn't. I couldn't have the guts to let go even in elevator Hyungwon doesn't let go of my hand when we got to the parking lot Hyungwon opened the front seat of the car and told me to get in, when I got in he closed the door and immediately went to the drivers seat as I pulling the seat belt Hyungwon took of my hand in the seat belt and started to do it for me, like obviously does he thinks I don't have a hand? I am melting inside honestly, I felt too many butterflies and fireworks in my stomach specially when Hyungwon's face is just an inch away from my face. When everyone is settled in the van, Hyungwon started driving. It was kinda traffic, Kihyun played some music, Find you started playing and I started humming to the song quietly. I am trying to contain myself not to tear up. Then after Find you, White love started playing, after an hour of driving we finally got to the social services office, as we got to the desk a middle aged man ask us how can we help us and I replied "Ah ne, yesterday a nurse from Seoul Hospital called me, as you can tell I am adopted, the nurse said something about my birth mother and she said social service is the one that can help me, I was wondering if you could give me some information about my mom" and the middle aged man asked "information about what?" So I replied "does my mother have a husband, does my mom has a son something like that" then the man asked for my mom's name "Shin-Ha, Yoo Shin-Ha" I replied "arraseo, let me check on it. Aha! She doesn't have a husband she was divorced and yes she have a son named Kihyun, Yoo Kihyun and it says here that she is dead already" the boys gasp after knowing the name of my brother, I am shocked for real because he has a same name with Monsta X Kihyun. We asked if my older brother has a photo which the man showed, it was shocking that I could see younger version of Kihyun in the photo. When Kihyun finally saw the photo he suddenly annouced that the guy in the photo was him it was him when he was 6 years old. I knew it, it was him since I saw Monsta X baby photos. After that the social worker gave me a copy of my birth mom's information and a copy of my older brother's photo. After going to the social service Kihyun suggested to do a paternity test just to know if we are really siblings or not, Kihyun is ready to pay for paternity test, I could tell that he hates the idea that he has to do a paternity test with me but he has no choice, since the social service have his younger photo. When we arrived at the hospital he immediately went to the information to say we're taking paternity test, I hope he isn't brother because the look on his face says he doesn't want to have any siblings and he hates getting paternity test.