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Sickie: Seungmin

Caregiver: Chan, Hyunjin

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Seungmin's POV.:
It's been almost a week since I last talked to my boyfriend Hyunjin. We had had a pretty bad fight, including lots of yelling at each other, and have been ignoring each other ever since. It was the first time we really fought and thinking back now, the reason seems ridiculous. The main problem was that both of us are very sensitive and the things we said were truly hurtful. Which resulted in both of us not talking and at least me feeling truly awful. I was pretty sure that Hyunjin didn't feel any better. I knew my hyung inside and out, so if he loved me even in the slightest before, he was really hurt by what I said, even though he tries not to show it. He spent most of his time at the practice room, probably to avoid me, which is kinda hard when you're sharing a room. It really couldn't go on like this. I don't think I could continue without kissing my boyfriend good night. It was our nightly ritual and I've been struggling to fall asleep without it, my thoughts eating me up inside. One of us had to make the first step, so after dinner tonight, I'd go and apologize. I really hoped we could fix this because I really miss my boyfriend and being apart would only hurt both of us more.

Just because we didn't talk didn't mean my eyes weren't on him all the time, although it hurt. I knew his daily routine. After our official schedule, we'd all have dinner together, which had been pretty awkward lately and I could tell our silence was affecting our friends too. Immediately after dinner, Hyunjin would hurry to our room to get changed without risking to run into me, and then leave for the practice room. He'd returned late at night, convinced I'd be asleep by then, though he should know I couldn't sleep before he came home. I'd have to be quick tonight and try to catch him after dinner while he'd get ready to leave for practice. During the entire meal, I barely managed to get a bite down, tapping my feet on the ground anxiously. I once dropped my chopsticks because my hands were twitching so bad. Hyunjin was the first to get up and put his dish away before speed walking to our shared room. Immediately getting up too, I followed him and managed to confront him before he took his shirt off, which I was very thankful for because I probably wouldn't be able to focus properly otherwise. "H-Hyung?", I asked, startling him. Aside from that there was no reaction from him, as he pretended I wasn't even there. I was fiddling with a loose string on my sleeve, looking at the ground when I forced myself to continue: "Look, I'm sorry. Can we please talk? I know what I said hurt you and I'm sorry for that. Can we please work things out because I really do miss you?" Hyunjin's face was cold as he just grabbed his clothes and pushed past me to get changed somewhere else, not even sparing me a glance. Before I could say anything else, he was gone. I was in complete shock and the small hope I had had to fix things between us was just as broken as my heart.

My hands shook as I dropped onto my bed and the first sob tore from my throat. My chest felt tight and painful but mainly I just felt empty. I couldn't help but feel that this was all my fault. Hyunjin had every right to be angry and hurt, considering how mean I was. I was a terrible boyfriend, how could I only realize that now? Now it was too late. Seeing there was nothing I could do about it today, I changed into a hoodie Hyunjin had bought me and went to bed still crying. I highly doubted I'd be able to stop anytime soon, so I just grabbed a pillow to muffle it a bit. Hopefully none of the other members would come to check on me because I really didn't feel like facing anyone at the moment. This was the first night I fell asleep before Hyunjin came home. My crying had drained me completely.

I woke up an hour early the next morning to my head pounding harshly. Groaning, I dragged myself out of bed to get ready early, so I'd be able to avoid the chaos later. One look into the bathroom mirror left me frozen in shock. How could I look this awful? My eyelids were swollen, while my eyes were red. My entire face was pale and splotchy. No wonder my head was hurting this badly with how much I've been crying. The crying had also done something else. It left my throat achy and sore from how hard I strained it to keep quiet. I splashed some cold water into my face and got ready. There was still some time left till the others would get up, so I decided to have breakfast already to avoid the awkward tension later. I didn't think I could stand eating at the same table with Hyunjin today. My appetite was barely existent but I forced myself to at least eat some fruit, so I could take some painkillers before leaving for practice. I also made myself a cup of tea and sat on the couch to drink it while the others got up and ready. The warm drink would hopefully soothe my strained throat and rehydrate me, so that the headache could go away. At least that was what I had planned. Neither had improved by the time we needed too head out but I hadn't given up hope that the painkillers would kick in soon. Plus, neither my head nor my throat was hurting as badly as my heart, so I barely even paid attention to them.