Braces ~ a Kagehina story

Chapter 34

Zara's POV:

I kept wondering why I never got the satisfaction I wanted from cheating or breaking up with all those boys, in fact I got the opposite, I got hurt. I didn't like it, the feeling of knowing you hurt someone deep down and they probably really enjoyed doing something and you had to ruin it for them. Did I really do that..? Am I really that kind of person?...

My chest hurts and my face feels wet, I ran to the bathroom and looked in the mirror "...I look like them." I said out loud, but I did, I looked like them. Like all the people I had hurt before, with puffy eyes and red cheeks with sparkly tears. I looked sad.

"Is...is this how they felt?" The thought of me making those people, real people, feel this way and probably worse, is sickening. How could I have done this..? I'm a bad person. 

My parents gave Connor all the attention so I just wanted some for myself. My parents were good people, or at least my dad was, I know that for sure. He would buy us presents and take us to the beach. He has passed a few years back and ever since then mom had only focused on Connor, sure she "loved" me, but I was upset and I took it the wrong way, so I hurt other people

"I cant believe I was so rude , and bratty...and....and a bitch!" I slammed my hand on the counter forming a bruise on my arm , tears fell onto the floor as I stared at my reflection "I'm so stupid.." I let out an exhausted sigh, 

"I have to break up with him, and apologize for everything I've done." 

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Hinatas POV:

"Okay" I said softly replying to suga who nodded and then walked out the door , once he did I sat back down and let out a sigh "loves hard." I scratch my head , what am I supposed to even do..? "Maybe..you should get it all sorted out with Zara first and then you can decide what to do about the situation with kageyama.." , hm. Suga suggested I should do that..and it sounds like a better idea then I could come up with so...I think I'm gonna do that.

But what if I hurt her? I thought to myself. If she's really cheating..I don't know how she would react, maybe she would be sad?  But...if she's not cheating what would I do? What if she cries? She's really pretty! And really nice! I think she is at least..what if I hurt her?

...what if-

~creeeeaaak~

I looked up at the door opening to see tsukkishima and yamaguchi walking in staring back at me "uhm...what are you doing here?" Yamaguchi asked obviously looking nervous about something , "what are YOU doing here." I ask back making them look at each other and then back at me "he asked you first ." Tsukkishima claimed in his usual rude tone 

"I'm gonna go back to practice" I said stretching and standing up , "what are you guys gonna do?" I stopped stretching to see their reaction , tsukishima kind of just stood there but yamaguchi look embarrassed and like he was mentally facepalming , 

I shrugged and then began walking out of the door when I paused to say one more thing "you guys should really wait till after practice" I looked back to see yamaguchi as red as a tomato and tsukkishima giving me a glare, but he was blushing under his glasses. I had to quickly walk away to hide my laugh

After my giggle faded away I took a small look in the gym to see kageyama talking to Connor and Zara talking to yachi. My face dropped.

"I have to break up with her."