Watching You

29|Stiff

Harry's pov

After the meeting we just endured I felt it only fair we go out, there was a mall only 5 minutes away from the hotel we were staying at so if nothing else we could at least stop at the food court

We probably won't be staying past tomorrow this was all just a big waste of time

I only came because one of my best consultants told me this company wanted over 30 sites fully covered with my security systems that was bigger than any consultant could handle 

But upon arrival it was just 14 warehouses which is still sizable but could have been managed by 2 or 3 consultants, with at most maybe an email to me

I parked looking over at Alexis, she had taken off her blazer and was now in some purple checkered pants with a matching purple button up blouse

"Is there anywhere in specific you wanna go sir?" She asked

I shook my head and got out she got out with me I locked the car she went ahead of me I walked behind her I looked around it was very busy I held an arm up behind her through the park lot and across the street

I let my arm fall when we stepped in "do you want to go off and we can meet later?" I offered "or would you rather stay with me?"

She looked back at me and shrugged "whatever you want"

"I'd rather you stay with me" I had a lapse this wasn't even about her safety it was because I wanted her next to me... I've got to stop doing this to myself and be in better control

She nodded "k"

I bit the inside of my bottom lip "how does lunch sound?"

"really good actually"

"What do you want?" I didn't mean to sound so gruff with her but I had to keep things short, sweet, and to the point

"Uh... chicken"

I preferred vegan or at the least vegetarian foods but I didn't mind a little bit of meat now and then I got in line with her there were a few people in front of us but it was all the more time to decide what I wanted

Suddenly she laid her head on my shoulder

I looked down at her I wanted to ask her a million things... Are you tired? Are you feeling well? Do you need something? Do you want my attention? Is there something wrong?

But I said nothing and looked back at the menu

Our turn came and only then did she lean off me I ordered for us I kept glancing back at her though her face was completely devoid of any kind of emotion I could tell she was unhappy

Her resting face is rather bitchy and her 'resting' face around people is very cheerful this face she wore now was neither of those

I took our food and sat down with her at a table we ate in silence I couldn't finish my fries so I gave them to her

We finished up and I kinda aimlessly walked down the long stretch I stepped into a suit shop just for a look around she as leaning against the wall by the entrance she had pulled out her phone and gone about playing games

I wasn't ready to go back to the hotel yet, I'm not ready to be confined with her especially not with seeing her unhappy

As I scanned through a rack I heard her voice I looked up

A man was talking to her I got closer to hear the conversation I stood at rack of pants that weren't even my size just to listen in

"Are you sure?" He asked

She giggled softly "mhm I'm sure but ya know I did break a nail crawling up from hell"

He laughed "okay that I can see cause I'd do some sinful stuff for you" he winked

She laughed and flicked her head to the side to get her bangs out of her eyes "what a Casanova you are"

"What a beautiful woman you are"

That's enough

I stepped out "let's go" I said and kept walking

"Coming" she mumbled we got in the car her legs and arms were crossed I could tell she was more than upset before

As we reached the hotel she didn't even wait for me to turn the car off before she got out

I rolled my jaw getting out and following far behind her

She stepped into the room and I caught up slipping in behind her

I couldn't hold my tongue "what's wrong?"

She turned to look at me "what?"

"What's wrong? You're obviously upset, so what is it?" As soon as I had said it I regretted it that's not at all how I wanted to say that

my tone didn't sound aggressive but that statement made it so that didn't really matter

She cocked an eyebrow only showing me that I had indeed fucked up "I don't fucking understand you" she growled

I tilted my head "what?"

She rolled her jaw "look do you want me or do you not want me?" She hissed "I'm sick and tired of playing games with you Harry! If you just want to casually flirt and have playful banter as friends that's fine I don't mind if you don't want me SAY THAT! but don't get jealous because a man talked to me while you've been avoiding me like I'm the fucking plague! That doesn't make sense!"

My lips parted in shock

"Well?" She egged on I heard the frustration in her voice I could swear she was near tears

I stepped closer I grabbed her face holding her cheeks in my hands "I want you so fucking bad" I leaned down and kissed her

I felt myself shake a little as I kissed her it felt right but I haven't kissed anyone in years... not since Natasha

Her lips met mine and I felt so much heat like I was getting too close to a fire but I wasn't burning myself just yet

I pulled away and went to take my hands back but she put her hands over mine holding me there

"Are you okay?" She whispered rubbing her thumbs over the back of my hands

I must have looked just as bad as a felt "I'm not used to this..." I mumbled

She nodded "that's okay" she smiled softly "I know how you feel now and I can help you through whatever you need if you want me to"

I gave her a very limp smile "thank you Baby"

She leaned up letting my hands slip from her face she kissed my cheek but I grabbed her by her hair leaning back some so I could kiss her again

as we pulled apart I shook my head "that doesn't mean I don't want it"