Leapt || Jungkook x Reader

Part 20

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"What's wrong with you?! You're going to leave me like this again?! All confused?" I shouted at him to make him stop. But he did not.

"Jungkook, if you ever cared about me, stop right there!" I shouted again. Fortunately, no one was near us. He did make him stop but he did not turn around. He just stood there looking at the ground. I walked towards him and stood right in front of him.

"You cannot just run away like this every time." I said to him. He just stared at the ground. He made his hand form a fist and closed his eyes showing how helpless he felt.

"I know."

He let out a heavy sigh before speaking while his eyes were still on the ground. "I know I can't just ran away like this. You already know that I was pretending. Fine, I accept that I know what you desire to know. I accept that I spent time with you but unfortunately, you have forgotten it all. Some of those memories that you lost were pleasant that I want to you to remember them for your whole life but some are just so unpleasant that I feel glad that you have forgotten them. I know you're smart, Y/n. You know there are only two persons who can tell you the truth, and I am promising you, I wouldn't be that one. I cannot tell you. I don't have that much strength left."

His tone was hopeless. My heart felt heavy listening to each word that came out if his mouth, no, they came out of his heart. He isn't lying right now. It's the first time he's being honest but it doesn't make any difference.

"If you don't tell me, I'll make you." As I said those harsh, selfish, cruel words his eyes met with mine. There's was pain visible in them.

"You care for me more than you should. I should appreciate it and I do. I really do. But I am gonna be little selfish cause you're being selfish​ too. You are not telling me the truth because you're afraid. Because of your own satisfaction, you're lying to me. Well, I will do the same."

Jungkook wasn't Jungkook right now. The cold guy I know was not even near the guy I am seeing right at the moment. He's fragile and helpless, lost and confused. No matter how I hard it is for me to ignore the sadness on his face, I will do what I have decided.

"What do you mean, Y/n?" His tone was soft. For the first, it was soft.

"What I mean is, I'm gonna take advantage of this caring attitude of yours towards me. I'm going to use it against you. It's cruel and evil of me to do. But I already told you, I'll be selfish from now on. I'm going to take advantage of your concern, your caring, and I'm telling you this right on your face." I said, his expressions did change after hearing these cold words coming out of my mouth but I couldn't care any less.

"And what are you going to achieve from it?" He asked. I hate to admit but I feel hurt when I say something that hurts him. I hate that sadness on his face. And I hate to admit it too.

"The truth. Let's make a deal, Jeon Jungkook. Let's cut ties here and make a deal. I'll do whatever it takes to make you tell me the truth. And you'll do whatever to ignore me. If you lose, you will do whatever I say. And if I lose I'll let you do whatever you want without questioning. I won't ask for explanations. And most importantly, I won't try to dig out the truth. I will leave my past behind. I'll stop running after it." I exclaimed.

He smirked and said, "If that's what you want then..." He took a step closer.

"Let's get it."