Racing One shots

What if

Sarah POV:

I was at a party for all of us racers and pit crew, and while normally I would be in there having fun with everyone else. But a few weeks ago I caught my boyfriend of 3 years cheating on me, and had been for over a year. And while the last few months weren't the best I never thought he'd ever stoop that low and do that to me. It shattered my entire being, he was the guy I gave everything to, and to only have that happen. So I'm trying to not go in there and get absolutely hammered to just forget everything for awhile. Because I know that wouldn't help anything, I had tried before. I look out into the dark and watch the waves roll and find myself transfixed while slowly sipping on my beer. I was so lost in my thoughts I didn't hear someone come out side and sit down next to me till they spoke up,

"Hey, what are you doing out here? I have been wondering where you were."

I blink and look to see it was my best friend Chase. I sigh and lean my head on his should and mumble,

"Just not in a party mood I guess."

He was quite for a few minutes and just watched the waves with me before he softly says,

"Sarah, what's going on? You have been really quite the past few weeks. And now that I think of it I haven't seen your man anywhere."

I flinched and picked my head off his shoulder and curled my legs under my chin and hugged my legs. My eyes were starting to sting as I whisper,

"And you won't be seeing him, at least around me ever again."

He was looking at me wide eyed in shock. He had never seen me like this and it unnerved him majorly. He gently laid a hand on my shoulder and asks,

"What do you mean, did you guys break up? Why didn't you tell me?"

I started shaking ever so slightly as I nod and choke out,

"Yeah, I found him in our bed with his other girlfriend of a year earlier this month. I didn't tell you because I didn't want you to go to jail for murder. And I'm still trying to come to terms with it myself."

I could feel him stiffen next to me as he lowly growled out,

"He fucking did what?"

I just shake my head as the tears start to pour down my face and I sob out,

"He, he broke me. I did everything for him and I wasn't enough! I was never enough, what's wrong with me? What do I have to do to be good enough? Fuck it hurts, 3 years for nothing but this, this heartache!"

He pulls me into his arms and just holds me as I break down in body shuddering sobs. After a while I calm down to just sniffles as he softly says,

"You are worth so much more, you are beyond good enough. He was just too stupid to realize what he had. And I'm so sorry but he was always an ass and never treated you the way you should have been. While I'm so livid he did that too I'm glad you left him, your better off even if it doesn't feel like it right now."

I stay quite as I was held to his chest and think about what he just said. And while part of me didn't believe I was good enough the other part agreed with everything. But then something made my head stop thinking, because at this moment I felt nothing but comfort, love, and safety. It was something I never quite felt in his arms and it threw me through a loop. I pull my head away slightly and look into his eyes only to get lost in them. He just stared back and before I could stop myself my lips were on his. He stiffened slightly before kissing me back, after a few seconds I pull back just slightly and blink as my mind finally caught up. My face went red as he rested his forehead on mine and slowly opened his eyes and asks,

"What was that for?"

I swallow and stutter out,

"I really don't know, my mind went blank after realizing how safe and loved I felt in your arms and my body just moved on it's own. I'm sorry if that made you uncomfortable."

He sighed and I shivered as his warm breath fanned over my face making me let out a almost whimper sound. I close my eyes in embarrassment as I whisper,

"Sorry, I'm really sensitive to anything remotely intimate. It's weird."

He softly chuckles and whispers back,

"Don't be, it's cute. And I'm glad you feel safe with me, and the love part I know what you mean. I've felt it when you'd hold me when I was upset, so don't be sorry. And I just might have to explore just what makes you get all bothered then, if you let me?"

I open my eyes and find myself already looking into his and see nothing but honestly and love. It made me feel like I had butterflies in my stomach, something I never felt with my ex. I blink and say,

"I think I'd like that, really like that. But if we are going to do or be anything can we go slow? I really don't want to jump into anything right out of a breakup because I still need to heal before I can give you my all."

He smiles and nods while giving me a quick peek on the lips and mumbles against them,

"I was about to say the same thing. When your ready we will be whatever we want, but for now kisses and snuggles should be ok."

I giggle and place my arms around his middle and say,

"Who knew you would be so into snuggling, quite girly don't you think?"

He snorts and shakes his head and whispers,

"Not when I'm only that way for you."

My face goes red again as I softly ask,

"Only me huh? Have you had a crush on me or something for awhile?"

He starts kissing down my jawline lightly and onto my neck making me moan lightly as he mutters,

"Yeah, for awhile now. But you were taken for so I never acted on them. But I think the way your acting now you have to."

I blink, taken back by how frank he was being but realized he was right and I never knew. I jump slightly as he nipped at my pulse and I stutter,

"Maybe you're right and I was just too blind to see it. But now I'm yours, well you know what I mean anyways."

He nods and hides his face in my neck and whispers,

"And one day you will be mine and I'll be yours."

I raise a eyebrow and say,

"You sound quite matter of fact about that, what makes you so sure?"

And what he says sends my heart on fire,

"Because you are everything I have ever dreamed of having. And if I fuck up and this doesn't go anywhere then I don't want anyone else, your what I want."

My eyes fill with tears as I smile and say,

"Well, I guess we will just have to see right?"

He just nods and we spend the rest of the night in each other's arms, trading kisses and talking about what our future might be like. And never once did my ex pop into my head, making me realize everything does happen for a reason after all.