blooming days| xiaohenyang

thirty seven

yangyang couldn't sleep that night. no sleep. nothing.

hendery's words kept replaying in his mind.

does he still love xiaojun?

he does constantly find himself thinking back on him. he thinks back on all the time they spent together.

he still get butterflies every time he sees him. his heart was racing out of his chest when he saw xiaojun on set the first time but of course didn't want to show it.

maybe he did have slight feelings for him...

when their relationship ended, yangyang was heartbroken. he would've never thought xiaojun had it in him to end their relationship over something so stupid & childish. sure yangyang knew where he was coming from but really? to end what they had for 3 years just like that...

he thought xiaojun would've texted him the next day apologizing for acting out of proportion or something but no. nothing... nothing at all

he was hurt that xiaojun didn't even make the effort to reach out to him after their breakup.

meanwhile hendery and him starting seeing each other more often, yangyang couldn't help but fall in love with him. he was just so perfect. he was literally someone out of a kdrama. he's was so handsome, romantic, kind, funny, and goofy. yangyang couldn't have asked for someone more perfect. well he did have his flaws here and there but still nevertheless, he was just so perfect in yangyang's eyes

so why does he keep thinking about xiaojun?