Falling apart

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-Gon POV-

My dad heard my screams. He walked up to my curled up state and sneered "Shut the fuck up you no good disappointment." I started suppressing my cries to get out of a beating. It didn't work. He took a look at my phone screen and grabbed it. He dragged me into his room while I yelled "N-NO PLEASE I'M SORRY, I'LL DO BETTER." My wails proved no point. I sat in a chair while he looked my unlocked phone. He clicked on my conversations with Killua.

At this point I was tied to the chair so I slumped down dreading the future. As he read the messages his face became more and more rage full. I sighed as I watched him slam my phone at the all. I deserved this. But I don't want this. He sauntered up to me with something in hand. I couldn't register it with my tear-clouded vision.

The burning hot sting of a whip slammed against my legs, I jolted from the unexpected pain. I let out shaky screams as the whip cracked against my body.  He danced around me, clearly pleased with my uneven cries. As more pain was inflicted I faded off. Consciousness finally left.

I  woke up in my room. I looked myself up and down accessing the damage. I groaned reaching for my phones usual spot. I sighed remembering what had happened and rolled over curling up with a blanket.

I just started bawling, for every reason. I completely ignored the people trying to help me so they probably don't love me anymore. My aunt is dead. My dad hurts me in every way. Kites gone. And I was falling apart. I bit skin from the insides of my mouth and scratched the flesh away from my body. Finally my tiredness consumed me and I fell asleep in a small pooling of blood.

—Killua POV-

I missed him. I just stayed in a room at Leorios house all day. I knew what it was like to be hurt by parents, the people who are supposed to protect you. I silently sobbed pushing myself farther under a pile of blankets. I just wanted to hug him. But he didn't want that. He wanted to be with his dad. And I can't stand that. He wants that greedy and abusive bastard over us.

I rolled on my bed texting Gon for the 8th time today. As usual I was left on delivered. I cried a little harder and alerted kurapika. He slowly approached and put a hand on my back. He gave me a reassuring smile and pulled me into a hug. I hugged back and said in a low whisper "I-I don't want to Lose him" . Kurapika just sighed and patted my head. "He'll make it through this, I hope." There was a pause between us as he choked back a cry. "J-just be strong Killua." He said turning out. I just buried myself under my blankets to escape my problems. I fell asleep and a dream played like a movie

—Killuas dream—

I sat on the roof of a building. I was watching the sky as I heard someone come up onto the roof . I peered around to see a pair of familiar green boots and a jacket lay on the ground neatly. I darted past them and saw a boy leaning on the railing.

He looked down and smiled. He hopped over the rail and stood on the edge. "G-Gon?" I stammered. "What are you doing?" I asked In a slight panic. He gave me a warm teethy smile and said "I'm just freeing myself." And leaned backwards, letting himself fall.

—end of dream—

I shot up from my sleep, sitting up. I shook as I recapped what my mind had put together. It had created a disgusting rendition of a dream. One that could be considered the worst nightmare of all. His words and actions from the dream played back in my mind over and over.

I composed myself and walked out of my room. Went to the kitchen where Leorio had been pacing and sat on the counter with a glass of water. I curled my legs up to my chest "whatcha up to old man?" I asked sipping my water. Leorio sighed and looked at me "I'm worried ab-"about Gon?" I cut him off. "Yes yes about him. I don't know if he's ok." He said trailing off. "I had a dream, I-it was about Gon committing" Leorios eyes shot up and asked "how much did you see?" I paused and said "everything, it hurts me to see him like this. Ive heard his goodbyes and Scene him jump. If he dies I don't know what I'll do."
Leorio sat with understanding eyes and listened to  my rants. "He's my light and has always been there for me. After the hunter exams he helped
Me escape milluki. He cheered me on when no one else w-would." I finished with a sniffle. "Killua" he said calmly. "I know you two have been together for a while, but I need you to stay strong. Be strong for Gon."

His words echoed. I can't let myself fall apart while he's in pain. I'll be strong. I'll be there for him like he was for me.



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