It's not your fault

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-Gon POV-

I sat on the floor of my room amusing myself with a small frog stuffed animal Killua gave to me a while back. My dad busted through the door and said "I'm leaving for a week. Don't fucking go anywhere or you'll get shocked." And left when I nodded a little.

After I heard the  front door click I ran up to the bathroom to shower. After I felt semi clean I called Killua. "What's up Gon? You ok?" He said clearly eating something. I giggled a little "my dad left for a week. Can you come over?" I could almost hear the excitement in his voice. "Yes yes sure!" He cheerfully spoke.

Killua always seemed softer around me. He never really maintained his tough-guy assassin persona.  We hung up the call and Killua seemed to appear at my front door. I opened it and saw that he had brought kurapika and  . My eyes lit up as I jumped on all of them and hugged them. I realized I had gone somewhat out of my house

The shock collar threw an electrical current through my system as I fell back and winced, gripping the part of my neck the electrical prongs sat on. Killua bent down to access the collar and shook his head while clicking his tongue.

"It can't be removed, it needs a key and it's made out of tough fabric. I groaned and whined "whyyyy?" Kurapika stepped forward and said "probably so bigger dogs can't remove it so easily." I sprawled out on the ground whining. Killua picked me up and sat me on the table. He started closely examining my body.

He ran his fingers along some of the larger scars and shook his head. "Why you?" He said almost inaudibly. He got eye level with me and set a hand on my cheek. "Gon, do you mind taking off your clothes and showing me the extent of your injuries?" I looked down thinking about it.
"S-sure I guess" we got up and headed for the bathroom.

He assisted in removing my jacket and shirt as I flinched from some newly inflicted cuts. He saw the discomfort plastered on my face and he patted my head. "You're doing ok." He gently spoke with a reassuring smile. At this point I was left in just my shorts. Killua had me sit down ant carefully looked me over with an occasional tongue click or shake of his head. By request I removed my shorts.

This was the point I saw anger fill his face. No matter how hard I tried to scrub it away there was always a blood stain running down my inner thighs. He stared I n disgust as I begin to feel self conscious. I pulled my Knees to my chest and buried my face in between them. Killua covered me up with a towel and Leorio came in. I bounced my legs nervously as they spoke. Leorio kneeled next to me and started fixing up my wounds. He got to the infection on my eye that had been covered with puss and blood soaked gauze (a/n *gagging*) he poured a clear liquid over it. The fluid stung my nose when I tried sniffing it for identification. Suddenly I realized as my cut stung horribly. Isopropyl alcohol. I bit my lip to stifle my pained noises.

After a minute it stopped hurting and a bandage was placed over it. After Leorio finished I was able to put my clothes back on. I limped out of the bathroom and leaned on Killuas shoulder. I hadn't gotten a lot of real sleep in forever.he saw my tired eyes and sat down, pulling me onto his lap so we were face to face. I wrapped my arms around his neck. I leaned on one shoulder and quickly fell asleep.

I woke up to Killua, kurapika, and Leorio talking. "How had do you think his mental health is?" Kurapika asked. I put my head up groggily "w-wha who?" I asked yawning. They all looked At each other, dodging the question.

"Hmmm Gon, when did you last eat?" Killua asked when my stomach growled. "Yesterday night." I said tiredly. I was immediately handed some food and orange juice. I quickly ate it and Killua hand a puzzled look. "Why'd you eat so fast?" He questioned. "Oh uh it's just a habit, usually if I don't eat fast enough I get my food taken." Killua looked down at the ground muttering again.

"Hm?" I asked, wanting him to speak clearer. He just ruffled my hair and said "oh nothing." Ending with a small smile that melted my heart. I sat in between kurapika and Leorio, resting my head against Kurapika's shoulder. Killua looked at us and slumped down, crossing his arms. "Heh someones jealous." Leorio snickered. Killua said nothing but walked over. He picked me up and sat where I was sitting. He put me down and pulled me into his lap again. Now I was between everyone. This was the safest I had ever felt. I sprawled out across everyone and fell asleep.

The next day kurapika and Leorio were gone and I was laying next to Killua, who was on his phone.  He saw the confusion on my face as I searched for the two missing people. "They went home and left me to keep you company." He said ruffling my hair. "How bad did you get hurt for trying to run away?" I shuddered thinking about what I got for that "it was terrible." I said showing off bruises on my back and legs.

"Oh and what did you see w-when the other day?" Killua looked down in deep thought. "Everything." He stated with anger in his voice.   "I saw fucking everything that bastard did to you." He growled through clenched teeth. Since he was almost yelling, out of habit I backed away. He saw that and approached me. I curled my knees to my chest and covered my face with my hands.

He slowly uncovered my face gently and kissed me. "I'm sorry for scaring you." He softly said as a pink blush crept onto my face. He giggled and grabbed my chin, pulling me closer to his face. I profusely blushed. "I know you liked that." He said. I nodded my head humming in agreement. He snickered and kissed me again. I blushed a deep shade of read and he teasingly asked
"Aww did I leave you speechless?"I punched his shoulder and hid my face.

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I listened to gons character song on a 10 hour loop to write this. #ginghateclub