i miss how depressed i used to be
i would cut every day and try to kill myself once or twice a month. i would lose hair and sleep and so much weight i felt like i was in control of the whole world. i was so skinny i could have fucking flown if i tried hard enough.
now i've fucked it up!
now i look like a beached fucking whale and i hate myself more than ever
at least i knew i was making progress back then
anyway
i want to kill myself again
