Love is Pain (Forth&Beam)

Unbearable Pain

Beam once again looked at his mother who was sitting and looking around happily.

They were going to the kongthanan mansion

Her face was so red from the joy of meeting her elder son as if all her blood had come on her face.

There was a deep impatience and smile on her happy red face

Her eyes were moist with happiness, She was looking at Beam again and again happily and pass smile

Beam wanted to smile back for her but he couldn't because he knew that if he moved any muscle of his face to smile back, he would be break down and he would burst into tears at his helplessness and pain, He had a hard time controlling himself, So he didn't force himself to smile

Miss jane didn't know anything about what happened to her son, she was so much happy for her elder son that she didn't see the unbearable pain in her younger son's eyes

Beam didn't want to tell her anything and didn't want to end her years of waiting and the joy on her face that he himself had seen for the first time.For the first time in so many years, his mother was so happy that tears of joy were flowing from her eyes

How could Beam destroy that happiness of her? And what good would it do him if he told his mother the whole truth? Would his pain go away? Or his past would have changed?

There was no benefit in telling the truth to her. On the contrary, it would have ruined his mother's happiness. He knew how much she had suffered for her elder son in the last 20 years, he knew that how many nights she has spent weeping and begging God for her son

"You should not have withdrawn the case against Pha and Forth" Beam was so lost in thoughts when someone's voice from behind pulled him out of the world of painful thoughts

Beam looked back and saw Mr Kongthanan standing behind him

The pain and remorse were clearly visible in his aged eyes, Beam's eyes lit with anger to see him

"The woman who used to be your wife,The woman who suffered so much for her elder son that she lost her mental balance. Can you see happiness in her eyes?" Beam pointed to his mother in the car and said in a bitter tone , he didn't want to break down in front of him.

"It is a happiness to meet her son who was taken away from her years ago. she's going to your house to see her the son, Do you have any idea what will happen to her when she goes there and does not find her son there? " Beam said every word with gritted teeth

"But what they both did to you......." Mr Kongthanin mumbled in mouth. There was deep guiltyness and worry in his eyes

"You don't have to worry about me,
Because I don't think we have such relationship where you have to worry about me" Beam said in bitter tone with stone face and turned to the car

Beam once again looked at his mother, who was sitting in another car a short distance away then he opened the door of the car in front of him and sat in it and closed the door and black window

As soon as he got in the car, his tolerance broke and he burst into tears. He quickly put his hand on his mouth tightly and tried to suppress his voice.

His heart was bursting in pain but he was so helplessness that he could not even cry openly to ease his pain

He did not want to face any of them again, He did not want to meet the person who was his elder brother by name but was the equally responsible for his every pain and suffering, who enjoyed his every pain and was about to rape him.

He did not want to go the mansion, but he could not tell his mother why he did not want go that mansion

"I have to.... put up with.... it for my mother's ...... happiness" Beam put his other hand firmly on his mouth too and tried to suppress his uncontrollable crying and sobs .But the more he tried to suppress his crying and sobs, the more uncontrollable the crying and sobs became.

He bowed down and kept his face on his lap and applied more force on his mouth and pressed his mouth more harshly with his hands to suppress the uncontrollable crying.

He was in so much pain, his mecirable condition was beyond description.

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