can't escape || mattia polibio

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Mattia pov

the amount of times i've told her to leave and get out of my life but not one has she listened, i didnt need her now, and i didn't want anything to do with her. ok i'm lying. i just don't want to hurt her but i wanted make her wish come true

although she hasn't gotten the point

and i think i have something on mind that might work and get her to actually stay away from me and never think twice about it

"i'll be back" alejandro said as he grabbed his car keys

"alright, stay safe" i answered. he nodded walking out the door closing it behind him, i sigh as my phone started ringing and i didn't have to look to know who it was

julia has been calling me the whole week after what happened after dinner with the williams.

i picked up my phone and finally decided to answer it

"mattia? you picked up" her soft voice said through the phone as i took my seat on the couch laying my head back on the couch pillows waiting for her to say something else "mattia?" she said again

"i didn't respond for a reason" i said setting up on the couch

"oh um" she spoke up after there was a moment of silence, she didn't say anything after looking for her next words or when they'll come out

"can you make this quick? i got better things to do" i snapped, i didn't have to see her to know she was surprised by my words "i'm waiting" i said tilting my head on the phone so i won't hold the phone and instead serve myself a glass of wine

"can we meet up?" i heard julia asked

"you want to meet up? like i said i got better things to do-" i couldn't even finish my sentence because she cut me off

"i heard you the first time. please" she said with such an soft innocent voice making me gulp and nod my head although she can't see me, i bit my bottom lip before talking again

"ok." i said

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i turned off my car as i looked out the window to the dark park that only had a nice view of the city, i scanned the park for a second until my eyes landed on her, sitting on bench as her legs slowly shaking from the coldness, i closed my eyes

i really didn't want to hurt this girl

yet here i am waiting for something or someone to take me out this car and go up to her and break her heart, but that was just out of anger on what she did to me

i finally got out the car and slowly walked through the grass and pushed away the branch's from the trees out of my way as i slowly walked towards julia who now had her hands on her face

i was now in front of her, she hasn't looked up or took out her hands off her face yet, i cleared my throat catching her attention and making her look up at me as our eyes met, i immediately broke eye contact and looked away, i wouldn't dare look into those eyes who might make me fall in love all over again

"what did you want to talk about?" i asked. i looked at the space that was next to her in the bench before taking a seat

"i'm sorry" she started as i leaned back on the bench "i didn't mean anything i said or anything i did" she finished making me nod, i wanted to forgive her and tell her i cared but that's the complete opposite of what i did

"that's it?" i said looking up from my shoes to her with narrowed eyes "waste of my time" i said getting up and turning to look at her who got up as well

"mattia" she looked at me like she wanted to say something else but she couldn't say it

i waited for her next words, but then again nothing came out her mouth making me scoff

"maybe we should've never done this" i said looking around our surroundings as she shook her head walking up to me

"no i'm sorry for everything i've done and put you through, i learned tha-" she started but i cut her off this time, i thought about this and debated weather i should tell her or not and i did

regretting it, i lied

"i never really liked you, i just wanted you to kill miles but you were just too hard to get to do anything that i made you believe i liked you but it didn't work either so it's useless now" i said. her face dropped as i looked away

i didn't want to see her with such a sad disappointed faced, i didn't want to see her tears

"i learned that i loved you" she finished her sentence that i cut her off, i widen my eyes looking at her, her glossing eyes made me want to hurt the person who hurt her, but that was me. i wanted to hurt myself for this

"you what?" i said but she shook her walking away from me, i turned to her direction and she turned to look at me one more time

"you were right, we should've never done this"

a/v: i'm so proud of mattia and the boys for graduating and becoming the mans they are, i love them all so much, congrats to them. how y'all been??