i do not support ella in any way. this book is a comfort book for a lot of people and some people haven't finished yet.
"A killer who is afraid of guns and another who is afraid of the dark, huh? Quite the team."
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It was always so dark.
Sometimes I would spend several seconds blinking nonstop, thinking that maybe the problem was me. Maybe my eyes simply stopped working and now I was blind... but no.
The darkness would consume me entirely, it was a feeling that started deep in my guts and slowly spread to every single cell in my body, enveloping me in a way that made it impossible for me to get out.
My lungs hurt and I couldn't breathe properly, each sharp intake of breath would feel as if I was breathing fire, burning me along the way as it seemed like someone was crushing my chest. I felt stuck... I couldn't move or see or feel anything but terror.
I had no idea where I was or how long I had been in the dark for, I was just... there.
Physically there, but mentally somewhere else entirely.
I never had control of my brain or my thoughts when this happened, whatever this was. Usually, it would feel just like a void, sucking me into the darkness and drowning me with fear and panic.
My skin was crawling and I could feel the thin layer of cold sweat, mixing with the tears streaming nonstop down my cheeks and soaking my shirt.
Maybe I fell on the floor, maybe my legs simply didn't handle my weight anymore. I had no control over my body whatsoever, I was a prisoner.
I was sitting there, but without knowing where 'there' was.
It was a feeling kinda like quicksand, if I even dared to try to snap out of it, I'd be dragged back into the same cycle of emptiness, only deeper and deeper.
Everything was black. It was quiet. There was no light.
I could hear my heart racing, maybe... I wasn't sure. But it was reverberating through my whole body and it felt like the sound of my blood coursing in my veins was echoing even louder, keeping me trapped in this neverending torturous spiral.
But there was something different today.
I didn't remember what happened in order for me to be alone in the dark, but I had a feeling of concern and frustration that was nearly as strong as my fear. There was someone in the back of my mind... I just knew I had to snap out of this, but I couldn't.
I was wide awake but in trance... frozen in place but with an unreal flow of rushed thoughts.
