im falling back into the habits again
the self degrading thoughts
the pit of exhaustion
the i need to talk to someone
but no ones available
i feel bad continuously texting them
i jst want someone who checks up on me
ill be talking to someone and it doesnt matter if its not who i want to talk to
theres one person who is my lifeline right now
i feel like im annoying them tho
i feel like im a burden to them
i dont know if i should stop and let them text me first
but then i feel they might not think i want to talk to them
and the cycle continues
it gets worse at night
the thoughts
i try to call people at night so im not in my head
but there busy
so i suffer and i dont tell
except the few who read this
YOU ARE READING
This is all too much
Randomthis is me venting but also trying to be aesthetic so i dont cringe as hard when i reread what i used to feel like and who i used to be i hope that if you read this it might help you not feel alone or just have comfort knowing others are struggling...
