A New beginning

Chapter 23

Justus-

"Eat Siah, you have to eat."

"I'm not hungry," he pushed my hand, with the loaded spoon, away. I took in a deep breath while I closed my eyes. Messiah just got out of the hospital and he won't eat anything. Before he left they had to see if he had an appetite and he did. Now I'm starting to think he forced himself to eat just to come home.

"Do you want something else? I can make something else what do you want?" I can't fucking cook.

"I'm not hungry right now, I'll eat later."

"You said that last time Siah, you've haven't eaten in three fucking days."

He got up taking the bowl and put it in the microwave.

"Baby, I promise I'll eat later." No he won't. He started walking back to his room slightly limping. I'm staying with Delilah and Messiah until he gets back on the right track.

"Well what time is later?" I followed him.

He shrugged his shoulders.

"Siah," he sucked his teeth.

"When Delilah comes back," Delilah is with Devonte, he took her out to get fresh air and go to the park or something because Siah obviously can't and I've been here with him.

I watched as Messiah plopped on the bed and winced.

"Siah, you have to be careful." He waved me off mumbling a 'I am'.

"Well if you aren't going to eat, sleep for a while. You've haven't been doing that either."

"I took a nap earlier."

"For five fucking Messiah,"

""It was actually 13 minutes," he corrected me like that was any better.

I let another sigh. He won't eat, he won't sleep, he won't talk and he won't even fuck. At first I was letting him fuck me senseless so he could tire himself  out, but after a while he didn't even feel like doing that.

"Siah I'm worried about," I admitted.

"I'm fine," he's not though.

"Siah, just talk to me, what's wrong is there something I can do?"

I watched as he shook his head no. "I'm all good Justus, see, I'm even healing a bit." He raised his shirt a bit letting me see the healing gun shot wound.  "Is it about the whole situation Siah? I shouldn't have killed your sister I'm sorry,"

I would've killed her either way.

"Drop it Justus, I don't care." Obviously he does. Mayla and him were close. Messiah would do anything for that girl and for her to do that to his daughter and side with that bitch was really hurting him right now.

Siah put his arm over his eyes. I watched as his shoulders shook violently. He's crying.

I moved over to Messiah lightly tracing circles on his slightly exposed torso.

"What did I do wrong J?" Messiah asked.

"You didn't anything wrong, Siah. Don't blame yourself."

"It's my fault, does this make me a bad father?"

"No Siah, you're not a bad father. Not even close to it."

He stayed quiet for a bit trying to get his breathing back to normal. I watched as his breathing slowed down a bit. He was going to sleep. Finally.

I started to get up. Messiah automatically grabbed me not letting me go. I huffed and instead of sitting down, I laid next to him. When he felt the bed dip again his breath slowed again. My phone started ringing. I picked it up seeing it was Devonte calling me.