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[ Aizaia Yzabelle Monterrio ]

December 15, 2019 | 6:45 PM

Mamshie Zaia:
Hey :))

U ok?

Balita 'ko pinaalis ka nanaman sa work mo huhuhu :((

8:17 PM

Cai Cai:
Hi Zaia!

Correction, hindi ako pinaalis sa trabaho. Ako ang nagresign hahahaha

Demanding manager ko eh :((

It's hard to work with toxic people you know. I eased the pain for almost six months. I can't take it anymore kaya nagresign na 'ko huhuhu

Mamshie Zaia:
Ah okay. Epal si Tanleigh napaka peyk news HAHAHAHAHA

Anyways, ano na balak mo? If I were you kase, just go with my offer. I told you may kilala akong acting agency na nagrerecruit! You should try it :))

Cai Cai:
Should I give it a try? Hahahaha

Baka inde nila ako taanggapin huhu

Mamshie Zaia:
gIRL ANG NEGA MO ALAM MO 'YUN 🙄

Cai Cai:
Advance lang ho mag-isip HAHAHA

K bye tulog na me

Mamshie Zaia:
Girl ang aga mo namang matulog

Cai Cai:
Masama na ba magulog ng maaga ngayon :((

Inayos 'ko na body clock 'ko. Ayoko nang magaya nung college days na todo puyat dati

Grabe eye bags ko non inde ko alam kung mukha akong bangkay o zombie HAHAHAHA

Mamshie Zaia:
Wala ba kayong orasan dyan

8 PM palang kase oh :(( tara tagay muna 🍻

Cai Cai:
Bakit ano meron? Ikaw ha nagiging lasinggera ka na HAHAHA JK

Mamshie Zaia:
Dali na! >:(

Pero serisong usapan nga, okay ka lang ba talaga :( kase mukhang hindi huhu

Cai Cai:
Aizaia

Mamshie Zaia:
It's okay :))

Is that about Bryle? Do you miss him?

Cai Cai:
I'm not yet over him, Zaia :((

I miss him so much. I miss his smile. His laugh. His lame jokes that still makes me smile because he said the. His hands interwined with ine

That ones that were scarred at the knuckles but so gentle to me. His eyes, his dark brown eyes always got me no matter what. His hair, jet black and wonderful. His touch, it set my skin on fire every brush. His words, how everything he says calms me down. His lungs, he is overbearing taller than mr but made me feel safe. Almost like I could melt into nothingless. His thoughts, the way he always think and act showed me who he was everyday. I miss everything about thim. And so much more

I want to talk to him :(( but I don't know how. Pagkatapos 'ko siyang itaboy at pinaalis papuntang States? Who am I to have him back :(

Mamshie Zaia:
Then chat him! :)) He told you that he'll fight for you right? You told him that we were willing to wait

You trust him right? Kung sinabi niyang babalikan ka niya, he really mean it

Cai Cai:
No :(( I don't think that's a good idea

Maybe Bryle has a good life already there. Ayoko na siyang guluhin, I'm sure Beatrice is still continueing her therapy

Mamshie Zaia:
So... what's your plan? You'll let go of him that easily? You already regreted pushing him to leave, Cailean

Cai Cai:
Naguguluhan na 'ko, Zaia

I love him, but I'm tired

I told him that I'm willing to wait, but it looks like I'm waiting for nothing

Mamshie Zaia:
Wdym wait for nothing :((

I thought he's worth the wait? And besides, you've been liking him for two years during our college days, why give up agad?

Cai Cai:
I'm not giving up, I'm just tired

During college days, puro kalandian at Bryle lang ang alam 'ko, things are different now Aizaia

We're facing reality, the real world and my job is now my main priority. I want to earn money and be successful

Mamshie Zaia:
So... bye bye Bryle?

Cai Cai:
Nooooo :((

You know Aizaia, people describe me as the happy person around. The one who always think positive and thinks about the best of everything. I'm always that friend whom you can count on to cry on, tells secrets, and help you never loose faith

I'm the type of person who gives everything wholeheartedly

But what about me? I'm falling apart and feel like I am not wanted. Like I could be easily be replaced. It's like I'm falling deep into the ocean of nothing

The more deep I go the more I loose my hope. Everyone doesn't even think that of me, what such a happy girl crying her eyes out at night

I'm sinking. I'm sinking deeper and deeper and won't ask for help but I feel no one would care. Honestlt I just can't take the pain anymore. I'm sinking so what about me? I meed someone to helo me gain my self back before I'm sunken into the bottom part of the ocean

It's like Bryle and I. I need him before I get drown with my own thoughts, I'm depressed thinking that he will never come back for me