Stefan's pov :
It's been days since I found out I have COPD , I don't really know how to react to that .. I mean I'm obviously sad because it hurts to breath and I cough out a lot of phlegm.. But it's okay until my brother and elena are here with me.. I actually feel happy.. I don't think about smoking much when I'm with them but every now and then I get this strong urge to smoke and I supress it because I promised them.. But it's so hard.. I have been eating more than I used to.. I eat all three meals now.. Even if I don't want to, which happens a lot.. Elena gives me her puppy face and bribes me with kisses.. How can I refuse that offer.. Heat rises up my cheeks just at the thought of it.. We've been.. I don't know.. Dating maybe.. We kiss every now and then and she sleeps with me- I mean.. Not like that.. God I remember when damon gave me 'the talk' ugh and I try to shake the thoughts away giggling to myself.. We cuddle each other as we sleep sometimes.. She takes so much care of me.. I'm still at her home because I don't know if I can go back to mine.. And she doesn't mind it. Her father apologizes to me and I told him he didn't need to.. I was sort of sad that Elena told him but it's okay.. He's a very kind man and even when he scolds me, he does it so gently that I wish I had a father like him. Although Damon did play the role of my parent ever since I was four or something.. He helps me do everything these days.. It's kind of frustrating how I keep stumbling because I don't have enough strength and am so weak, but he always is patient with me and never gets angry. He didn't even scold me for trying to kill myself.. I'm so grateful he didn't but the disappointed look in his eyes broke my heart.. I'm afraid he might blame himself.. He shouldn't though. How could it be his fault? It's totally not. He stays with me all the time and even brought bonnie here once. She's like a sister to me and when she ruffled my hair sweetly a warm feeling erupted in my chest and I felt very happy. I don't have fever anymore, it was such a pain in the ass, not even being able to eat food on my own. It's almost 8 in the morning and I get up thinking it's sort of embarrassing sleeping till late in another person's house. I see Damon and Elena are already in the living room with Elena's parents. Mrs Gilbert keeps calling me son and I swallow my tears at that because I love her so much, she reminds me of the way Martha took care of me, they are like the mothers I never had. It's weird how I feel more at home here than at my own house.. Damon helps me when I stagger a bit and I curse, gritting my teeth , Mrs Gilbert hears it and says, "don't curse son! " That was actually kind of adorable and I chuckle and say, "I'm sorry madam.." "Oh don't call me that" She said as she put her hands on her waist angrily, I giggled again.. "Look at this boy, laughing at me! " She said, chuckling herself, everyone laughed at this. It felt so good being this happy. "I told you you can call me mom" I swallowed hard at that, tears started forming in my eyes.. She saw that and she quickly came near me and lifted my face up "oh my child.. " And she hugged me. It gave me a feeling of peace.. I felt warm and relieved.. It calmed me down and I buried myself in her because I felt so safe. "Come, now eat. " I nodded and we started eating. I ate one pancake and felt full but Mrs Gilbert was giving me the glares so I had to eat, smiling to myself. I don't know if I could call her mom . It doesn't work out well for people who I call mom, doesn't it.. I'm sitting beside Elena and I feel her leg on mine.. She's definitely doing it purposely because there's this mischievous smile on her face.. She slides it upwards and I gasp, as she laughs.. God I hope no one noticed this because we are blushing like crazy right now. All of a sudden Damon says, " Stef. I think we should go home today you know. " Shit.. We're gonna leave today.. I guess we should .. We've given them enough trouble already.. " Okay. " Elena joins the conversation, " You can stay for as much time as you like, I mean.. What's the hurry.. " She said , trailing away.. She seemed kinda disappointed.. She looked cute as hell though.. I told her I know she doesn't mind but that doesn't mean we should keep giving her family troubles and she reluctantly agreed.. As I was leaving I felt so sad that I started craving for a cigarette.. I felt my hands shaking and I grabbed them in an attempt to calm myself down. I sat on the edge of the bed they had offered me and tried to shoo the thoughts away because I can't smoke no matter what happens. I promised them and I don't break promises. I CAN'T. I'm going to actually miss being her, with Elena, Mrs Gilbert, even Dr Gilbert.. He was kind of stern but a really humble and kind man. All of a sudden I see Damon coming towards me with a sympathetic expression on his face..I'm guessing he noticed how I was shaking.. He sat beside me and held my trembling hands supportively .. Trying to tell me that it will all be okay and that he will help ne through it. I know he would help me. I trusted him. I'm grateful. I smiled and he returned it. I felt my nerves calming down and bit and started getting up because we were going to leave in some time. When I reach home I see.. Him.. There. Should I even call him father? I don't know.. He has never acted like one.. He's sitting there relaxed not even bothered that I went missing for days after he beat me half to death.. He didn't even care.. Even his own son, which he was actually proud of, was not at home for days and he didn't care.. I have never seen a more selfish man ever. Martha sees us and comes running towards me, hugging me tight she kisses my forehead and I feel her tears on my shirt.. " Oh my sweet child! You're okay- I was so worried- I thought you-" " I'm okay, Martha.. It's all alright.. " Father gets up and smugly smiles. " So I guess the reunion is over. What have you come back for? " I step back as he glares at me. Damon steps in front of me protectively, father murmurs " Coward" Under his breath.. "We live here? " Damon said sarcastically.. "No. Not anymore. I won't take responsibility of your stupid selves anymore.Go do whatever you want. What do i care? " ARE YOU LITERALLY ASKING TO JUST LEAVE OUT OF NOWHERE? WE DON'T EVEN HAVE A HOUSE WHAT THE HELL KIND OF PERSON ARE YOU?!? HOW CAN YOU BE SO INSENSITIVE TOWARDS YOUR OWN SONS ?! HOW DID YOU EVEN NOT CARE THAT YOUR FIFTEEN YEAR OLD CHILD WAS MISSING FOR DAYS, ALMOST TWO WEEKS?! HE WAS STARVING ON THE STREETS WHILE YOU WERE OUT HERE LIVING YOU BEST LIFE NOT GIVING A SHIT ABOUT HIM!? AND DON'T EVEN START PRETENDING LIKE HE'S THE CAUSE OF YOUR SADNESS, YOUR MISERY! YOU HAVE NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME BUT YOU!! YOU COULD'VE BEEN HAPPY WITH YOUR SONS, AT LEAST COULD'VE TRIED TO NOT MAKE THEIR LIVES HELL? INSTEAD YOU CHOSE TO BLAME A FUCKING GOD DAMN BABY FOR EVERYTHING?! DO YOU REMEMBER HOW HE WAS LIKE?! ALWAYS RUNNING AFTER YOU TRYING TO GET YOU TO LOVE HIM!? DO YOU REMEMBER THE POEM HE WROTE YOU?! HOW COULD YOU NOT FEEL A THING FOR HIM!? HE WAS A CHILD FOR GOD'S SAKE!! HE STILL IS- AND NOW YOU'RE GOING TO ACT LIKE YOU JUST HATE HIM BECAUSE MOTHER DIED WHILE GIVING HIM BIRTH BUT THAT'S JUST A LIE. AS IF YOU WERE A GOOD FATHER TO ME. AS IF MOTHER WOULD BE HAPPY WITH THE WAY YOU TREAT MY BROTHER?! " " DON'T YOU DARE SAY HER NAME WHEN YOU'VE SIDED WITH HER MURDERER!! " I shiver, unable to move from the place I'm standing.. God- I want to run away.. Never come back here.. I'm so scared, not that I would ever admit it.. My legs are shaking and my breath hitches in my throat.. I think Damon notices this because he looks at me and asks me if I'm okay with his eyes.. I nod yes at him.. " HE'S. NOT. A. MURDERER. HE. WAS. A. DAMN CHILD. " he says through gritted teeth, over pronouncing every word to try to emphasize on them.. " SHUT UP! TAKE YOUR SHIT AND LEAVE !" he ended the conversation with a dismissal wave.. Oh my god where would we go.. Elena's? No.. She'll not mind but we can't give the Gilberts more trouble that we already have! I don't know what we'll do.. Damon nudges me and we go to our room and pack whatever stuff we need and leave. Martha comes to me and hugs me tight. She's so sad to see us leave. She's crying, hell I am too.. She's the one person that cared for me when no one else did. I love and respect her so much. When I'm hugging her I instinctively, involuntarily, started rubbing her back soothingly.. Just like Damon used to do to me.. "My son.. I wish I could do something.. " "I know.. Shh.. I know.. Thank you Martha.. For everything. For always being there with me. For being there FOR me.. For taking care of me, loving me like your own child.. Thank you. I love you. You're like the m-mother I never had.. " "Oh stefan.. " She said and starting crying into my shoulder.. My heart was breaking.. God I was going to miss her so much.. "You know I'll keep meeting you.. You're not done with me yet! I'll trouble you till my last breath" I said and chuckled but it sounded more like a sob and she smiled sadly and nodded, hugging me once more, like she didn't know if she'd be able to do this ever again. She's in her 60s and there's no way she could find another house to work at now.. She wanted to leave quite many years ago but She only stayed so long for me, now she probably will make some arrangements and leave because she hates our father. I will still keep in touch with her because I don't want to lose her. She is the most selfless and caring person I know. I remember she used to tell me how beautiful I was or how I was a good person when I was little because no one else did that for me.. Ever.. She used to clap for me when I brought home awards.. She was my best friend, mother, heck.. everything when I was younger. She still is. She'll always be. I love her with all of my heart. But now it's time for goodbye, not for forever, but still it causes pain in my heart.. We leave and I suggest Damon that we go to nate's.. He might be able to help us find a place to stay.. He has his ways.. Damon too had money of his own because he did work for years in the estate. We would be able to fend for ourselves for a month or so but I know I need to find a job. We go to nate's and I can see Damon's a little jealous of him, that's kinda funny. He tells us a place to go to and we go check it out. It's up for rent. Perfect. We'll move in tomorrow, right now I don't know where we should go.. "D-damon.. Where should we go now..? " "Umm.. Let me just ask bonnie I guess.. It's anyways just for a night.. I hope that will be okay.. " We go to hers and she smiles as she opens the door. When she learns what happened a sympathetic expression forms on her face.. She is okay with us being there for the time being and I'm grateful. Her mother passed away when she was young.. Damon and her have a lot in common in that aspect.. And in general too.. She makes my brother happy and that makes me happy. I need to talk to Damon about how we're going to do this.. When I find him alone and not drooling over bonnie, yeah you heard me, he does that, totally whipped, I thought about talking to him "damon.. What are we going to do.. " " About what? " "Uh like how are we going to afford stuff you know.. " " You don't have to worry about that. I'll find a job in the estate, I'm sure my previous employer will hire me again.. " "But.. But that doesn't.. Like.. I mean.. I should work too.. " "Stef.. " "I know you don't want that but there are many of my classmates who work. I.. I can do that too.. Maybe I can like work as a past time job or something..? " I had to convince him a lot and he finally reluctantly agreed. I just hope all of this works out. I'm almost sixteen.. My birthday is coming soon.. I just want to be Happy. Have a happy, normal life with Elena, my brother, Bonnie and even Martha.. I love them and they make me happy. All I've ever wanted to be is happy. My chest hurts a bit so I roll over and soon, I fall asleep with Damon's hand on my head.
Author's note : so Giuseppe is done with ugh I really hate him.. Also stefan will now like think about what he wants to do and stuff but he's just 16 so he does have a bit of time. I'll probably create some more problems lmaooooo and then end the story OBVIOUSLY at a good sweet note :) I hope you liked this and the story. Did y'all like this 🥺🥺 Have a nice day, love you. ❤
