harry attacks

chapter 4

Three days later harry is truly fed up he hates hospitals and wants to go home so when no one is looking he makes a break for it unfortunately for him he runs right into his dad."Where do you think you are going young man, honestly I leave you for two minutes and you can't even stay put" sighs Severus as he is nearly run over by his son."umm, I was going to go home I'm bored and I need a cigarette, please dad I want to go home" harry whines he really needs a cigarette he hasn't had one all day and as per the rules he has to ask his dad if he wants one now as his dad is trying to get him to quit."Well since you up and running now I will take you outside to have one, and I got a therapist for you to talk to about your depression your appointment is in an hour""WHAT, dad I am not talking to a shrink I will happily talk to you how I am feeling but I am not talking to a shrink and if you make me do I will set fire to myself""You do that young man and when your all healed up and healthy I will personally take the skin off you backside for you, you are seeing the therapist I will not have you suffering any longer now come on if you want that fag"Severus and harry walk outside and Severus hands over the cigarette with the lighter to his son with a sad look on his face. Harry lights the cigarette passing the lighter back to his dad he inhales a drag and the holds it for two seconds before exhaling he feels the release of the tension and is thinking about everything when he gets locked up in his thought again."Harry, harry, HARRY"Jumping out of his thoughts he asks his dad what he wanted after his dad tells him it is time for his session with the shrink they walk back inside and to his room to see the shrink already there."hello harry I'm Maria and I will be your therapist for however long you need me for, I am here to listen to you, you can talk about anything you want or not even talk at all ok""Ok" mumbles harry."So what's been going on?""I feel sad, angry and worried all the time if I fail a test I get frustrated and worry is going to fail the year if I'm in a crowd I start shaking nothing I do feels right I just feel like everybody would be better off if I wasn't here""Ok, what do you mean when you say you feel like everybody would be better off if you weren't here""I mean if I was dead""HaveYou thought about or done anything to harm yourself before""I have thought about it and come close to acting on it but then I think about my family"The therapist is taking notes and just listens to harry for the rest of the session when she looks at the clock she see the time is up."ok harry our time is up now but I would like to see you every week until I feel you are coping and I am going to recommend putting you on antidepressants to help you ok?""Ok" harry says getting up off the chair and lying on the bed.One week later"harry have you taken your medication today you look a bit lost in thought there you ok son" Severus says as he looks up from cooking lunch in the kitchen."Yes I took them I am just thinking if we could turn one of the bedrooms into a duelling room so I can get my frustration out""Why are you frustrated son""I'm not, I meant for when I get frustrated or angry I can go in the duelling room instead of smoking, just to get me thinking about something else""come here son, I am so proud of you a week ago you wouldn't even think of this you would just come to me and ask for a cigarette and now you are asking for me to change a bedroom into a duelling room so you don't have to think about smoking" Severus said as he hugged his son"Thanks dad can we do it after lunch because I really want a cigarette but I don't want to go over my ten a day limit as I have already had four""sure" says Severus as he dishes out lunch smiling he is so proud of his son it makes him want to just hug him and never let go he has been talking to him about how he is feeling and Severus feels he is getting his happy go lucky son back yes his son may get in trouble at times which is normal but just latterly he has been so out of character it's been unreal