Athena Complex

Chapter 20

"Makinig ka nang mabuti sa akin, Samantha. Minsan ko lang tong sasabihin kaya makinig ka nang mabuti ngayon, okay?"

Napalunok ako bigla. Why is he so serious?

"O-okay."

"Stop thinking about those things or people that aren't necessary to our relationship. I don't care about other girls whether they are my ideal or what. As long as they are not you, I totally don't care about them."

"Zaiken..."

"Sshh... Ako muna ngayon. Alam mo, kung may paki talaga ako dyan sa ideal girls na yan, matagal na sana akong nagkaroon nang girlfriend ulit after Virgo. Pero hindi. I've done everything para lagyan nang wall ang paligid ko. I was also busy hating her back then. But you see, you were able to surpass it all. You broke down the walls I made. You made me forget my hatred towards her and forgive her later. Iniisip ko nung una, siguro they weren't just strong enough. But of course, it was a lie. You're just too strong to resist lalo pa nung mga panahon na nakikilala kita kahit pa nga hindi sinasadya. And what made me bound to you even more is your concern with others.

"When you helped Leo and Judy getting back together as friends, when you tried to help that girl at the mall, when you were happily playing with the kids of FYM, when you rushed to that John just to get even for Sophy, when you helped the three of us to realize our mistakes kahit pa ikaw ang mas nasasaktan. Iilang bagay lang yan, Samantha. But they were all able to remain in my mind. Hindi ka man perpekto pero we all know you have a big heart for everybody. Kaya wag kang magduda kung mahalin man kita. Maswerte na ako kung tutuusin kasi gusto mo ako. Hopefully as time goes by, it will grow as more than that."

And... I was dumbfounded. I seriously don't know what to say na nayakap ko na lang siya, unconciously. I never been intimate with a guy before. Oo, I am normally brave about saying what I feel pero ngayon? I can't specifically find a word to recapitualized what I am feeling right now. I have never been appreciated as what he just said. Hindi naman iisang beses akong napuri sa buong buhay ko. But his words, it touched me deeply.

Lord, kung maiinlove man akong tuluyan sa lalaking ito, make it for long term please. In the first place, he wouldn't be here with me kung wala siyang importanteng role na gagampanan sa buhay ko. But whatever it is, good or bad, I'll treasure it for sure.

"You hug me. Does it mean tayo na?"

"I don't love you yet. Bakit kaya di mo muna ako ligawan?"

"Ligawan? Are you kidding me? Tapos na tayo sa phase na yon di ba?"

"Huh? Hindi mo pa naman ako nililigawan ah. Baka windang ka. Ibang chicks ata yung sinasabi mo eh."

"Eh sino ba kasing nagsabing ako ang nanligaw? Ikaw kaya yon."

"What?!" At hinampas ko pa siya sa dibdib. Loko loko talaga to. Pinagtitripan na naman ako eh.

"Totoo naman di ba?"

"Hindi kaya. Kapal nito. Bakit ba kasi ayaw mo akong ligawan? Bigyan mo naman ako nang chance para magpakipot sayo."

"Bakit pa eh alam naman nating dalawa na patay na patay ka sa akin. Kaya wag ka nang mag-inarte dyan. Tayo na ha."

"Kahit isang buwan lang."

"Ayaw."

"One week?"

"Tsk!"

"Damot!" Tapos nagpout ako. Ngumiti naman siya. Tapos ginawa na naman yung favorite niyang gawin sa noo ko.

"Don't pout. Hindi ka cute."

Agad ko namang inalis yung pagkakanguso ko. Tsk! Lakas makaself-concious nang lalaking ito eh.

"Bully."