𝙴𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝 {𝙴𝚢𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝙹𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚡 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛}

𝙶𝚞𝚒𝚕𝚝|| ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟙𝟙

I was bored of being stuck inside the mansion all day, sure it was fun hanging out with everyone and playing games together and watching movies but, I missed going outside. I realized it probably wasn't a good idea but that didn't stop me from wanting to go out. I groaned and looked over at Toby who also seemed to be very bored, as well as Jack who was upside down on the couch as usual

I stretched out and sat up from my laying position on the floor, I looked over at Toby again who was just sprawled out on the floor. I hummed and looked back over at Jack who was now looking at me. I knew he wouldn't be able to go with me, maybe Toby could. I hummed again before standing up, I decided I'd just go by myself, it shouldn't be too hard, right?

It'd been almost a month now and I had a room of my own now as well as plenty of clothes, it was right beside Jack's which made it even better. I stepped inside my room and shut the door behind me, I got changed into a black oversized hoodie, some dark ripped jeans and my black Converse. I also stuffed a face mask in my hoodie pocket for when I was outside

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I was okayed to go out and now I was just walking around town happily taking in the fresh air around me. It felt good to be outside finally and back in my familiar surroundings. Thankfully I had my mask on and my hood was up so hopefully nobody would recognize me, not that anybody besides F/N probably really cared anyways

I stopped in front of the bakery I'd always visit for the old lady, they had so many different kinds of sweets and it always smelled so good, but I'd never bothered to try anything before. Without thinking I stepped inside and looked around, everything looked absolutely delicious and the smell was just as amazing as I'd remembered

I stopped in my tracks immediately feeling anxious as soon as I laid eyes on a familiar face, F/N was talking to the woman at the counter. They seemed distraught and looked like they hadn't slept in days, a sense of guilt filled me as I averted my gaze. They were the one person I didn't want to leave behind and felt guilty for leaving. After they left I bought some f/f pie and quickly left

I exited the bakery to see F/N just leaning against the bakery wall with their head in their hands. I was trying my best to just ignore them and keep moving. I felt extremely guilty and like I'd made a big mistake, that feeling didn't pass as I made my way back to the mansion

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I stepped through the mansion doors and immediately headed towards my room, I set the pie on my bedside table and curled up on my bed. I held my head in my hands and tried my best not to cry, I felt like I'd betrayed F/N, I lied to them about where I was going, I lied to them about how long I'd be gone, and I kept so many things from them. I felt so much guilt, I was angry with myself for being so stupid and not thinking about how F/N might feel

I felt hot tears start to roll down my cheeks and my entire body started to shake, my breath was shaky and shallow. I held my legs to my chest and tried to cry as quietly as possible, even though right now all I wanted was to scream. I tried to calm myself but it only made things worse, I wiped my tears but they just kept coming

I heard my door open but I didn't bother to look, I just stayed in the same position still trying to calm myself. I tensed up when I felt a hand on my shoulder, it sniffled and looked over to see Jack, he was sitting behind me with his hand on my shoulder as if trying to comfort me. I wiped my eyes and sat up, tears still fell from my eyes, I hugged my knees to my chest again and Jack tilted his head slightly to the side

"I feel guilty... I lied to F/N about everything, and I kept even more from them.." I laid my head in my arms, Jack hummed before placing his hand back on my shoulder "Well you couldn't have just told them the truth. They would have worried more, no?" I sniffled again and looked over at him, he smiled softly making me feel a bit better "I guess not..." His smile got wider and next thing I knew I was smiling too. "Thank you Jack." I smiled up at him, he always made me feel better even without trying, he smiled back and nodded "There's no need to thank me though." He removed his hand from my shoulder and I watched it fall to his lap

He was always so kind and understanding, even if he could be a little too blunt and straightforward at times he was still very kind. When I first started talking to him I'd never imagined I'd end up enjoying his company let alone end up living with him. He'd become my closest friend and someone I trusted more than anyone else. I knew he wasn't human and I knew at any time he could hurt me but, that didn't stop me one bit, and it certainly didn't stop me from catching feelings for this strange yet fascinating man

I just stared up at him as he looked back at me, in the moment I wanted to spill everything, how I felt about him, about everything that had happened the night before we arrived. I wanted to hug him and let all my emotions spill out, but at the same time I was scared, I was scared to be honest with him, I was scared I would lose him, so I kept quiet