So maybe it's more of a loop
I felt this way then and instead of cutting things off there I tried making a knot to make it stronger
and the past year was just that
the loop that it takes to make the knot
here I am back where I started
crossing paths once again with a distasteful feeling
but the knot that was being tied has been made and there isn't a difference in strength because the string is still the same
maybe this isn't the first knot I've made to mask what is lacking, and to mask my heaviness of despair and discontent
So now, knowing that I can't do anymore
that no amount of ties will amend or strengthen the string
Hand me a pair of scissors
I want this to feel as blunt and the reactions I've gotten from them
And then I want what remains to fray away
For the sharp edge to taper so that I may move on
