BTS HYYH Notes (Book 1, 2, BUS Game) // COMPLETE [Part 1]

2019, Mar 15 - Yoongi (I Talked While Eating)

[Place: Classroom-turned-storage room also known as Hideout]

The food was exceptionally good today. It was just a typical school lunch but strangely it also wasn’t. I didn’t show it. That wasn't something that matches me.

I sat on the chair and a spoon was between my fingers like I was even too lazy to hold up a spoon. Taehyung and Jungkook made a fuss about closing the curtain saying the sun ray was coming in and changing their seat, due to that dust blew, Namjoon yelled, telling them to be quiet at least when we are eating. I thought while holding my spoon, "When was the last time I ate with a light heart?"

As far as I remember, there was no conversation at our family dinner table. Not even words such as- 'the food is good', 'can I have some more?' 'it was a nice meal'- nothing went in between. Eating was considered nothing more or less than trying to maintain life in our family.

(A/N: Sorta flashback)

"Min Yoongi, don't talk in front of your food."  I don't remember the last time my abeoji said that to me. The only sound was that of putting down the spoon loudly. He did not raise his voice or get angry. No, I don't think he even looked at me. Even then I didn't open my mouth. I stopped what I was saying and instead shoved a big spoon of rice in my mouth. While doing so, I bit the side of my mouth. I could taste blood. It hurted and I think tear came out, but I didn't say I was in pain. I wasn't supposed to say anything in front of the table. I forcefully swallowed the rice that tasted like blood.

(A/N: End of sorta flashback)

Someone took my food from my plate. I cringed without much thought. It didn't mean I didn't like it or got annoyed. It was just my normal reaction for every event. “Yoongi hyung is mad.” Hoseok jokingly said, “What are you going to do Taehyung?” and Taehyung exaggerated on being apologetic. It was something Hoseok and Taehyung would say.

It's fine. “You eat everything.” I talked without thinking.

Then loud conversations went by and burst of laughter came. No one noticed. That I talked while eating.