BTS HYYH Notes (Book 1, 2, BUS Game) // COMPLETE [Part 1]

2021, Feb 25 - Hoseok (Dancing, Hope, To Become Happy)

Their ages at this year:
21 y.o - Seokjin
20 y.o - Yoongi
19 y.o - Hoseok & Namjoon
18 y.o - Jimin & Taehyung
16 y.o - Jungkook

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[Place: Dance studio]

I danced, not being able to take my eyes off of myself through the mirror. Everything became peaceful. Moving my body along with the music, apart from my feelings, nothing outside of that was quiet.

The first time I danced was when I was 12 years old. I think it was for a talent show or retreat I went to. I stood on stage because of my friends. The thing I remember the most from that day is the applause and cheers, and the feeling of actually feeling like myself for the first time.

Of course, back then I thought it was just joyful moving my body to the music. That was a bliss, and I found out way later, that the bliss wasn't coming from the applause, but from within.

I am tied to a lot of things outside of the mirror. I can't stand having my feet touch the ground even if it's for a few seconds, even if I hate it, I smile, and even when I'm sad, I smile.

I take pills that I don't even need and faint no matter the location. That's why when I dance I try not to look away from myself through the mirror. Because it's a time where I can be myself, fly and drop all the heavy burdens, because it's a time where I gain hope that I can become happy. I look at those times.