Amnesia

My Angel

AUDREY POV

For the past two weeks Xavier and I have been eating dinner in our room together.

I planned to ask him if I could start going to the library. It was my favorite place in this mansion. I also hoped he would agree to start having dinner in the dining room. It wasn’t the most comfortable thing to eat in a bedroom.

Xavier came home and came to our bedroom to have dinner as usual.

As soon as we finished eating and the maid took our plates, I decided to ask him my question.

“Xavier, can I ask you something?”

I suddenly became nervous.

I worried that he would get angry and have me locked in this room a lot longer. But I had to at least try.

“Would it be alright if we have dinner in the dining room from now on? I’m sure you’ve noticed, but it’s not really comfortable eating in this room.”

I didn’t want to ask him about going to the library.  Maybe I could ask him tomorrow. 

He wasn’t saying anything, meaning he probably wasn’t going to agree to let me leave this room and go have dinner with him downstairs. So the idea about going to the library was probably out of the question. 

“Alright, we can do that from now on.”

I was surprised he had agreed.

My heart beat began to calm down.

“Thank you.” I said.

I felt so happy. So far things were going as planned.

It was late so we both got ready for bed.

We brushed our teeth together like we used to.

I changed in the bathroom and I laid in bed.

This routine reminded me a lot of how we were before our big fight. 

The only difference was that I wasn’t snuggling with Xavier.

As much as I still loved him. I didn't want him to touch me. He was hurting me by locking me up. 

Touching me was a privilege he didn't deserve.

Xavier turned off the lights and laid in bed.

There was a gap between us.

He didn't hug me like he normally did nor did he make sure our bodies were touching.

I closed my eyes as I tried to sleep. But having Xavier beside me made it hard.

Every time he went to bed I was always asleep. But this time I was wide awake.

The fact that I felt slightly uncomfortable having him so close, just reaffirmed that things weren't going well between us. 

After a while I managed to start falling asleep. My body finally felt tired and my mind began to settle down.

However as soon as I was about to finally sleep I was woken up by Xavier's sudden embrace.

He moved his body close to mine as he wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck.

We hadn't been this close for a long time. At least not when I was awake.

I didn’t know whether I should push him away or pretend I was asleep.

I had no idea how to react. His arms remained around my body and he seemed to be falling asleep.