sometimes I dream about you
and in my dreams
you're holding me
and when I wake up
my mind expects you to be
there
next to me
when I turn over
next to me
like you used to be
and there's that moment
when my mind's trying to catch
up
when I'm freefalling
when my hand reaches out
to touch the sheets
beside me
and you're still not there
you're not there
and it clicks into place
and the dream fades away
but sometimes when I dream about you
my heart never catches up
for hours
for days
it forgets that you're no longer with me
it forgets
it expects you
to be right beside me
it looks for you, smiling
and returns empty handed
it cries out to me
"where has he gone?"
and how do I tell it
that it was merely a dream
was it only a dream
was it only a dream?
sometimes when I remember our time together
it feels like I'm dreaming
because how could something so good
be real
and then be
gone
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