The Hope Within Us (Memories Series #1)

Chapter 21

We celebrated our first anniversary with a weekend trip to Baguio. Naiyak ako nang ilabas niya na ang regalo niya, hindi lang para sa akin. It's for us. It's a promise ring. But I was overjoyed when he opened my gift — a memory book. Childish man sa paningin ng iba, dugo at pawis ko ang pinuhunan ko matapos lang iyon kasi gusto ko meaningful ang una kong ireregalo sa anniversary namin ni Inus. Puwede pa namin itong balik-balikan since it's our memories together. Mawala na man ang lahat, mananatili itong matatag. I'm sure of it.

"This is priceless," komento ni Inus bago ako paulanan ng yakap at halik. "Explore natin 'to mamaya sa kuwarto natin."

"Hmm, baka iba ang ma-explore mo, ha!" I threw in, insistent on teasing him.

"Aba, sign ba 'yan? Hindi ako aayaw, Lu." Binigyan niya ako ng makahulugang ngisi.

My virginity was damned. It was only a tease, with no intention of implying anything beneath my clothes. It was only meant to add to our dinner date's laughter and comfort. But I forgot it was Inus I was dating — the man who takes everything seriously but enjoys making fun of others.

"Kaya mo ba?" Inus grinned as he tore the condom's plastic.

Sa lagay palang na iyon, parang gusto ko na agad siyang luhuran. My body, on the other hand, chose to wait patiently sitting on the bed, as if it wants to savor every part of his body, bit by bit, for as long as the night lasts. Kung puwede lang... since this will probably be our first awkward and erotic night.

Oh!

Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng paglalaway ko sa bawat galaw niya nang bigla niyang hubarin ang damit niya kasunod ng pants. Oh, my fucking God?! Ito na ba talaga? Mangyayari na ba 'to ngayon? Hindi na mapa-pause? Hindi na maaawat?

"Tinatanong kita..." Unti-unti siyang lumapit sa akin. Bumagsak agad ang mga kamay ko sa kama para suportahan ang sarili ko. This is the time where I should play hard to get first. I laughed at the back of my mind. "Kaya mo ba?" Tuluyan na siyang pumaibabaw sa akin, kinukulong ang maliit kong katawan sa ma-muscle niyang mga binti at kamay.

Halos kapusin ako ng hininga nang pumitik sa may tiyan ko ang alaga niya. Hindi ko magawang makatingin doon pero sa hinuha ko ay nilalagay niya na iyong condom na "palagi" niya raw dala. I even questioned him about that first but I got lost again. He told me it's for preparedness and safetiness. Eh, ngayon nga lang kami magse-sex na for sure ay matutuloy na nga.

"Try me," hamon ko sa kanya, hindi nagpapasindak sa mga nakakatunaw niyang titig na animo'y may kislap sa bawat marahang pagpikit ng talukap ng mga mata niya.

He crouched down a little bit more. I closed my eyes and slowly opened my mouth to welcome his lips on mine, but they didn't come. Instead, he began to leave small, wet kisses on my ear, all the way down to my upper boobs. Gosh, that tickles and it's kind of turning me on, slowly.

My mouth let out a soft moan. For that, I immediately bit my lower lip with a cursed mentally. Alam kong ito ang pinakagusto ng mga lalaki, right? You see, I'm not as innocent as you thought I'd be. Down there, I'm a virgin — which will be devirginize later on — but not my eyes and ears.

Napahawak ako sa batok at ulo niya, sinusubukang pagluruan ang medium-layered niyang buhok. The only time I opened my eyes wide again was when my left nipple popped out of my brassiere due to him pulling it down. Napatingin pa ako sa kung ano man ang gagawin niya, may kaba at takot na biglaang sumakop sa puso ko.

"You're shaking." He looked at me, smiling wickedly, before he sucked on it.

My head bounced back on the soft mattress. Akala ko kaya ko pero unti-unti na akong nawawala sa sarili ko. May kung ano ang unti-unting nagliliyab sa loob ko na para bang pamilyar na ito sa katawan ko.