My Feelings

Agony

I used to feel comfy around you,
but not anymore.
Every hurtful words you utter,
now feels like a part of me
You seem not to trust me anymore,
It's fine though.
There are coming times I will need you most,
you wouldn't show up for sure.
It feels like history repeating itself.
I am trying so hard to fight my pain alone,
since you see me like a burden.

While death lurks at my doors,
Getting signs that exhumes danger,
Maybe my end is near.
but one thing I'm sure of is the
fact that you are to blame,
I leant on you amidst my darkest periods
but you kept pushing me away.
I got my closure, you simply don't care.