My Feelings

Lost

This pain is unbearable,
can't take it no more.
I feel used
maybe I am though.
Everytime I try to mingle
it ends with betrayal or maybe
that's what it looks like.

Every happy mood from me is
a facade. It's a pleasure for me to
keep my emotions to myself.
Even though I'm currently in
a dark place, I don't want to keep
blaming those who inflicted this
pain on me,I will blame myself
because I let my guard down.

My naivety has cost me a lot,
all negative results. I am patiently
waiting for the day that I will be freed
of the burden this thoughts carries.
It's weighing me down in a lot of ways
but maybe it's possible to scale through
it.