I cant believe it.
Just like that I never spoke to him again, I miss him.
My brother.He's no where to be seen, I might find him if I look on jides account, but I can't bring myself to see him not in the social world nor in the real world.
I moved to LA for a fresh start but in a few days I'm moving back, I can't stand it here it's to...not me
Everyone is in your face.Everyone just gossips, argues, don't even get me started on the paparazzi, not saying I experienced that but like I've seen them before, real annoying pesky things. Plus I have like one or two paparazzi from my twitch account, though I don't post anymore.
Another day another start right?
Wrong.I just can't stop thinking about the past events that had taken place.
The argument, the aftermath of the argument, where I am currently in life.It's a lot to handle at the age of 25, some may say I'm old some say young but I really don't understand the difference, we all will die one day.
You know, it takes a lot of courage to leave him.
Leave a mutipulated manipulator.
I know it sounds crazy but like his friends that he's been with, they were not a good influence.They manipulated him in so many ways.
I guess he then thought that's what love was, turned it on me.My relationship with Jj was the sweetest, we kept it private.
I bought him hamsters, even if it was a private relationship, it was strong.
Key word, was.The backstory from our relationship is the sweetest thing.
I wanted to marry him, call him mine forever but I just couldn't. Not after what had been done.
I should give a background story of our relationship, really I should but my therapist told me to leave him all behind and in the past.
I've tried
But I fell in love what am I supposed to do?
No no not inlove I hate him, he's a jerk.
I've been eating non-stop, even after I'm full if someone asks me to eat I just keep eating, I hate it.
I look fat, my face on one side looks so much more inflated then the other side.I want to start doing something with my life instead of this stupid notebook, app thingy.
I seriously need a name for you.
Bestfriend.
Yeah that seems right.Well best friend goodnight.
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