A quiz I'm taking let's you just spill what's on your mind, this is what's on mine
I'm tired. The world is confusing. I feel like it can end at almost any day. I listen to others problems and keep them secret, but I don't let my own problems out. School stress and being overwhelmed from school, theater, at stuff isn't anywhere near as troublesome or as big as anything else, so i ignore it. I just keep it bottled inside.
I have a show going on at school where I'm playing a part and working with two there to choreograph a few songs. Another at dance where it's really dance heavy, and dance isn't my strong suit. I barely have my lines memorized, I don't know the dances that well, and the shows in February. I'm not the only one that doesn't know though, with some not knowing a single line. And I'm starting a new show soon, the cast list is going to be out around Friday, and the show dates for that overlap with my school show, but it's a requirement to do that to do the other dance show. I can make it to shows for both though, just not my school's cast party or maybe some of my off night at school, it's the same problem with a classmate too though, so I'm not alone.
I don't feel like myself. I am a mixture of all the characters I've played in theater, yet I'm not myself. I feel as if I'm multiple people sometimes, yet I don't feel like myself. I want to be a guy with short, fluffy hair, and a flat chest. But sometimes I want to change my style completely, I want to wear layers and layers, a tank or something, shorts, belts, arm warmers and stuff. It's hard. I can't see the two as one, and I'm no where near ether right now. All I got is the hair.
My real life is good though. I just got out of my previous semester classes because I couldn't survive another semester with that class. I almost had a breakdown every day, but now I'm out of that mess. At dance I'm helping out with a younger kid dance class, their all adorable and sweet, but the class is ending soon. I help out on Tuesday then dress rehearsal and it's over.
Some good, some bad, lots of stress that I've bottled up and just let out here.
I don't want anyone to feel sorry, or stressed, or anything. It's just my thoughts
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RandomMy thoughts, emotions, and stuff that's bottled up. Ignore this if you want, don't if you don't want to, it's your choice. If you know me Irl or think you might know me i please don't read this. If you do and just don't listen to me saying not to re...
