From The Heart <3 (Poems And Short Stories)

Dumb

That's me dumb...

I should've known better, of course he dosent want me now since he knows me, I can't say I blame him, cuz who would anyway, he tickled and tickled me most of the day, and I couldn't do anything about it, but  when I get the chance to try to tickle him he gets mad and turns around and sleeps and leaves me all alone with my hands and my chest aching, he ways tells me to calm down like I'm some kind of child, maybe I should try the reverse and tell him to cool it, and see how he likes that, I can't do anything right, I always say something wrong or don't say anything at all, it's all my fault, I should do better, he says things like no your fine the way you are, if I'm really fine the way I am, then why does he feel the need to belittle me by saying I act like a child, or or to calm down and relax, it's like I'm just a speck of dust to him, I hate having to wake him up! It's so stressful honestly I think I'd rather just try to walk home at this point, I hate waking up people because they get angry and fussy and it runs my nerves to breaking points! I'm so insecure I feel as if he hates me now, and is maybe pretending to be nice to me, maybe that's what all of this is, what if from the beginning he was trying to be nice to me, and maybe I was the one who took it to far, it's all jumbled

<3 just another freaking vent <3