THE SLUT MODEL [COMPLETED]

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I can feel that someone is watching me like waiting for me to wake up.

Although I want to open my eyes to see who this person is but I can't open my eyes. It's just can't. It’s as if my body is saying that, it will be better if you'll just feel his warm stare and hold of him than you see him in person. Because when you see the person you hate, you will only get hurt.

I felt his warm hand caressing my cheek. In the way when he touched me it was as if he had not seen me for months or years and so more. His light and soft hand caressing my smooth face. When he held my hand and grip it tight, it was as if he would never let go of me because I might disappear again. And never comeback.

I felt water dripping from my hand. I don’t know if it was from the rain or from this man’s tears. I could hear her painful cries as she hugged my hand. In all my life I have never seen a man cry aside from my dad. But with this man I don’t know how I feel. My heart and mind knew him but my eyes did not want to open to see if I really knew him. I don’t know if it’s all a dream or not. But if it is, I don't want to wake up for the meantime.

I heard him say some word in his trembling voice.
"I-I'm so sorry, love..."

NAGISING ako nang marinig ang pagbukas at ang pagsara ng pinto. Minulat ko ang mata ko at tinignan kung sino ang taong pumasok. Nakita ko si kim na may dalang isang basket ng klase-klaseng prutas. Naglakad siya do'n sa maliit na mesa at nilagay ang dalang prutas. May dala pa siyang flower.

"Oh your awake na. Wait.. I'll call the nurse to bring the baby here na." lalabas na sana siya nang magsalita ako.

Medyo nanghihina pa ako. Masaki rin ang tahi dahil bago pa.

"Is someone visited me here while am asleep?"tanong ko sa kanya. Dahan dahan akong umupo sa pagkakahiga at sumandal sa headrest ng hospital bed.

I'm really curious if really someone visited me. I don't know if it's a dream or not.

"N-No... Of course. Maybe you just got nightmare while you're asleep earlier." she said shaking her head.
"The nurse earlier said to me that, there's someone living here. You know ghost? There's a white ghost here." she even roam her eyes to find the ghost she's talking about.

I look straight to her face to know if she's lying or not. Of course I know that she's lying. Her face is telling at all.

"Nung bago ako ipinasok sa delivery room, sino yung tatawagan mo?" I curiously ask.

"Of course, I called your doctor. She needs to know that your giving birth." she rolled her eyes to hide the nervousness. "I'll call the nurse now."

Napatitig nalang ako sa pinto na nilabasan ni Kim. I know that he called cliff to came here. I'm sure of it. I'm sure that his the guy who's talking to me earlier while I'm asleep.

Napapikit ako nang mariin at hinihilot ang sintido ko dahil sa pinaghalong naramdaman. Hindi ko alam kung magagalit ba ako kay kim o hindi. Hindi ko alam kung sino ang pagbubuntungan ko nang galit, si Kim ba or si Cliff na alam kung nandito ngayon sa loob nang ospital.

Bakit ngayon pa talaga kailangan niya malaman. Ngayon pa talaga na hindi pa ako handa na harapin siya. Hindi ko naman siya pagbabawalan na hawakan o makita ang anak ko kasi may karapatan rin siyang makita ang bata dahil anak niya rin 'yon.

Sperm cell niya' yan at ako lang ang nagproseso sa tiyan ko. Nag ambag rin naman siya.

Pero kasi, sa sitwasyon namin ang hirap pa masyado. Lalo na kapag naiisip ko ang mga ginawa niya sa'kin. Hindi ko mapigilang murahin at bugbugin siya sa isip ko. Kung nakakamatay lang talaga ang mag isip nang masama sa isang tao ay baka matagal na siya namatay.