Sinful Acts

Admit Defeat

The pillow started to get damp with my tears and my throat started to itch from all the sobbing, the more I thought about them the more I wanted to scream.

I launched the pillow at my vanity table knocking my stuff down, my belongs fell to floor with a clatter. I chocked back the lump in my throat pulling my knees to my chest, I thought back to all the time we spent togther and wonder if they glanced at eachother thinking about their misdeeds.

My heart never felt this way before it felt like someone took a hammer to my heart, but for some reason it didn't shattered it cracked it. The disgusting feeling of being the reason he cheated bubbled in my stomach, the sudden itch made me wanna hurt myself so I didn't have to feel this way. 

The door to my room opened. I didn't care to see who it was as I continued to rock myself wallowing in self-loath, I closed my eyes tight crying softly in anger.

"Why do you cry, sweet flower?" The sound of Dorian's voice made me sighed exasperating, my arms covered my face not wanting to give him the satisfaction of relishing in my misery.

"What do you want?" I spat.

"I heard crying and wanted to see if you were alright." I rolled my eyes at his bs excuse to come.in my room.

"I'm peachy." I said snarkily

"Now leave." The sudden thougt of wishing Peter was here made my lip trembled as fresh tears rushed down my face, I hate how one man can  make me feel so stupid and worthless. I couldn't stop sobbing thinking about Peter.

"I'm assuming this is about Peter and Lady Elodie?" He says.

I couldn't look at him as I unfold from my fetal position, my hand wiped across my face cleaning away the tears that remained on my cheek.

"How did you know?" I sniffled pushing myself up leaning against the headboard.

"...I may or may not have been eavesdropping on my way from the bathroom." He said.

"So you heard everything." He hummed a yes making me sigh.

"....Shit..." I whispered mad, the anger I was trying not let show started to bubble over, I don't know why I was angry —maybe at myself for being stupid enough not to see it was happening—or the fact Dorian was here to see me unravel from it.

My eyes moved to him only to find him at my vanity table messing with stuff, "Here to bash in my misery?" He turned his head towards me, I still couldn't see his face from his spot by the desk. The moonlight made my room dim a little but enough.

"No, I wanted to return this to you." He walked up to me digging in his pocket, I couldn't help but stare wide eye at his face. He wasn't the man I first met neither the man who attacked me in the maze, his once youthful and beautiful face was now mutilated. His long flowy brown hair now looks as if it was pulled from his head leaving in a couple of strands in the back.

"...Amelia?" my gaze snapped to his once  charming brown eyes, but now holds a dark evil stare. I turned my face away from him staring at my bed sheets, his face was exactly the same from my dreams.

"I found this in the maze after you ran away..." I turned to see his hand was holding my mother's necklace, I reached to grab it only for him to pull it out of my reach.

"Let me..." I nodded and turned around hesitant before feeling the cool steel chain around my neck, I turned back towards him and his face was normal again. I sighed touching my necklace before thanking him.

"Thank you, Dorain." I gave him a small smile for my appreciation, he nodded before speaking. 

"Before I leave..." he started moving to sit on my bed, I stared at him warily slowly scooting away from him.