MY MYSTERIOUS MAN

chapter 6

My life is good after a long time
I am happy
The job is going smoothly and I am visiting that man's shop everyday for food

By secretly seeing him all the time I finally found his name
Adil"
His name is beautiful too
I am getting attracted to him ..
But at what case
I am afraid at the same time
Should I stop coming here ?"
Everytime I have that thought
His beautiful smile throws me off and makes me come back here again and again making me a regular

But he didn't say his name by himself actually i couldn't ask him ..
I am a coward
I used to fight everyday
Having wounds is not a new thing

But still talking to someone you think is a little special is more harder than any wound hurting on your body

"Welcome back Ms.Nandini, what would you like to eat today" he asked with his beautiful smile ..

Well practically he knows my name ..
I am the one who said it ..
But still calling me Ms.nandini is a little --

Ahem ..

"Same as always, anything you recommend sir" .. whenever I see him ..
Sir" is coming out of my mouth accidentally ..
Unintentionally
He is like a special being
I have seen such beautiful eyes ..
Beautiful face
Pale skin
And especially his handmade food ..
That's the actual heaven
Like he mixes some sort of potion to make it tasty ..

Being 18 ..
Not keeping a foot in college or in the actual world of men
I neither have any experience or courage to take a step forward
If I really did try to get close to him ..
What will happen ..
Neither father or anyone is here to stop me ..
After leaving my love 3 years back ..
I know I can never see him again nor I have the same feelings as back then ..

Feelings are always weird ..
Even if you think you like a person wholeheartedly at that particular time ..
Being apart for few years makes you feel like the connection you have is not there anymore ..
Same like that i don't feel anything for him anymore ..

But what about Adil ..
If I did call for him ..
Then what
Everything will go well ?
I don't think so ..
Just look at him Nandini ..

I think he is the most beautiful person in this whole neighborhood
I can see how many women flock at him ..
Even if i did try myself jumping on him ..
He will have it so habituated that he will just ignore

But that's what I always see ..
His beautiful smile ..
His beautiful face ..
His name
His food
I know nothing extra about him from other persons ..
Like secretive
Or he doesn't like someone stepping in his Lands ..

"Here miss enjoy" he said placing the food infront of me ..

"Thank you"..I responded while my eyes still following his back posture ..

Today special is pasta ..
Ofcourse this is divine ..
Maybe he is a cook for angels before ..

Back in my home ..
Even tho I cook every single day ..
I never had a taste in my mouth ..
I feel I am eating blood every single time ..

Maybe that's why his food which is full of warm feeling made me come here again and again giving a beautiful taste to everything I eat

Hmm...i am done with the food ..
I walked to him and paid for the food ..

"The ..food is delicious" ..i stuttered

"Thank you,visit again"..he smiled ..

Like a photograph being taken ..he always smiles for everyone..
Handsome bastard

I left the place and is already late at night ..
The night sky is beautiful ..
Back in home ..
The only time i come outside of the house at this time is when I am hurt and have to go to the hospital ..

I was walking through a showroom mirror and I felt so disgusting looking at my face ..

This is the struggle i went through for the last 18 years
The scars on my forehead being hit again and again ..
The scars on my legs chest stomach head ..
Every scar is making me feel so disgusted..

I sat down sticking to the mirror ..

"My beautiful mom,do you know what i went through in these years ..
How did you even like that man
He is loyal unlike any other men I have seen outside ..
But he is alcoholic, abuser
Ofcourse he is never like that when you are alive ..
You died because of me ..
So he showed his anger on me ..
He truly loved you right ..
Then why can't he love the me who have your blood ..
I love him"...i said as tears falling down my face ..

I wrapped myself crying there at night

"Miss are you alright?" I heard a voice ..
I raised my face to see Adil ..

Wow ..what a luck ..
He saw a stupid face of mine ..

"I ..i am good Mr.Adil ..what are you doing here" ....I asked standing up

"I am walking home"he said ..

It's already been that late ? ..
I am crying on the road like a insane person and he saw that disgraceful me

"Do you want me to walk you home Ms.nandini" he asked while I am wiping my tears..

Nah I am good ..
Is what I want to say but when will o get this chance again to be alone with him..

"If you don't mind" ..I said and started walking along with him

"Why are you crying Ms.Nandini"..

"You can call me nandini "

"You can call me Adil then" ..

He said and I gave him a small smile ..
An improvement an improvement ..

"Just thinking of some stupid old things of the past" ...I said

As we are crossing the convenience store ..

"Should we eat some icecream"...he asked excitedly ..

I nodded with a chuckle ..
He is sometimes like a child ..I see ..

He brought two kulfi icecreams for both

"How old are you Adil" i asked taking a bite of my cool kulfi

"How old do I look?"

"Around 25?" ..

"Right"he said and smiled ..

"What's your age ?" He asked

"18" ..

"I see you are a college student" ..he said and i shaked my head as a no

"I am working in a flower shop near by my home" ..

"But why ? ..isn't college the thing you should be doing at your age ?
I don't know what reasons you have but i think if you miss this age of enjoying what you have to do at this present time ..
Later even if you regret nothing will change" ..

His words stabbed my heart ..
True ..
It's not like i never thought about it ..
It's just that I don't have any dream to work on it ..
What am I living
What am I doing
For what am I breathing ?