The Arrangement

Chapter Thirty-Two

Nicolas's POV

The drive to my mom's house was silent as Taylor looked out the window while fidgeting with her fingers and biting her lip.

I can tell she's very nervous to meet my mom and to be completely honest, I'm a little nervous as well.

I've never in my life brought a woman to my childhood home to meet my mom, especially not after we fucked the previous night.

She's the first.

Of course I've mentioned her a few times to my Mom, but it wasn't anything serious.

Nate and my mom think I'm in love, but I always try to change the subject because I know she's different.

I know she changes me for the better but l don't want to admit it. I'm too scared to admit it to them, and to myself. I don't know what to do.

I made those stupid rules and now I regret it more than anything. Why would I do that?

I didn't intentionally mean to fall for her, but it was hard not to. She intrigued me from the moment I saw her that day back in college. But again, I didn't want to admit it.

And that's why I made those stupid rules. Because I thought it would change how I viewed her. But it only increased my feelings for her. The fact that I knew I couldn't have her.

But I fucked it all up. By having sex with her. I knew once I had her, I wouldn't be able to stop. Because I couldn't keep it in my pants.

And I needed her.

I've never been this attracted to someone before and I don't know how to handle it. Do I just risk it all and confess my feelings to her? Do I pretend she's like everyone else? I don't know what to do and it's irritating me.

I can't deny that we have been growing much closer.

I've always been independent, never needing to depend on anyone else. But for some odd reason I find myself needing her every day. In my life, in my presence, everything.

Ever since I met her everything has changed.

She honestly changed me in the short single year I've gotten to know her. I find myself smiling more and more whenever I'm around her. Before l met her I never smiled. At all.

Now I'm always smiling like my life depends on it.

I can't deny that she makes me happy. She makes me want to be a better man. For her and for myself. I want to change my ways and improve myself to be the man she wants me to be.

If I could, I would throw every and any thing away for her if it comes down to that. The fame, the money. Everything I've worked hard for if it means I can have her.

She has now become my reason to live. My reason to breathe. She has become my everything.

I know it sounds crazy but that's how I feel.

And if she feels the same there's no need for anything else. I would finally be complete.

Because I'd have her.

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