In Her Moment

Its Not About Me, You or Us.

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"She's pregnant?" Ashley asked looking between you and the doctor

You felt as if your soul had left your body.

Your vision blurred and your hearing became impaired to where all you could hear were the small muffled sounds of one worked-up Ashley talking to the doctor.

"The sooner we do this the better" you heard the doctor say as you began to snap out of your small trance

"She needs a minute ok. Just back off for a minute" you could see Ashley who was now knelt in front of your chair

She was all you could see. And you were ok with that.

You removed one of her hands from yours to cup her cheek.

She looked like she was close to crying meanwhile you could feel your tears streaming down your own cheeks

You saw her. Really saw her for the first time in a while.

Her wide green eyes stare up at you hopelessly.

Her blonde hair grew out from stress messy against her face.

You felt her soft skin with the pads of your fingertips making her smile at you sadly.

For a second she had her Bumblebee back.

That was going to be the last time for a while.

The moment was gone as quick as it came.

you were in shock. complete and utter shock.

but, this wasn't the first time this had happened. you'd done it before and I guess you were going to have to suck it up and carry the baby of your rapist again.

you went along with another pregnancy test and sure enough, it came back positive.

Ashley began telling you that it was ok and telling you that you would get through this. while the doctor began repeating what your options are.

you tuned both of them out as your hands found your stomach.

there was a baby in there. a baby that was yours. your and Ashleys.

--

Ashley gave you your space for the rest of the day. you were surprisingly calm. it was scaring Ashley.

Ashley, on the other hand, was completely losing her shit. she needed Mary Kate.

"hey, Honeybee" she popped her head in the door.

you were sitting on the bed your shit lifted seeing as you were rubbing your stomach.

this freaked Ashley out

"I'm going out to lunch with MK. Do you want me to bring you back anything?" she asked kindly trying to ignore the unhealthy attachment you'd made with the small fetus growing inside of you

"no thank you" and for the first time in weeks, you smiled.

"Come here.. come say hi" you reached a hand out to Ashley who hesitantly took it and sat on the edge of the bed beside you.

You placed her hand on your still flat stomach

The whole thing filled Ashley with an eerie feeling.

Simply to please you Ashley forced a smile at you and a small nervous chuckle left her lips

And again you smiled at Ashley. and though she knew she should be happy because this was a step forward your smile made her skin crawl.

she'd never left the apartment faster.

"Thank god" Ashley rushed to Mary Kate who was sitting in the restaurant

Mary Kate stood up to greet her sister but was almost knocked over when Ashley rushed into her arms.

She hugged her sister so tightly she felt she might burst into tears

Mary Kate could sense her sister's fragile stated and tried a soft approach at starting conversation

"What happened, babe?" She said softly when Ashley finally took her seat across the table.

"Y/n is pregnant" and just like that she burst into tears

Mary Kate was quick to soothe her sister standing up with her and taking her into her own car.

"Where are we going," Ashley asked wiping the smeared mascara off her cheeks. 

"We need Lizzie"

When they approached Lizzie's house they walked in unannounced

Lizzie and Robbie were sat in the living room watching something on the Tv

"What are the two of you doing here? What's wrong?" Lizzie stood up in concern

"She needs... we've gotta talk" Mary Kate gestured to Robbie on the couch.

She was never very good at being subtle.

"Patio" Lizzie ushered them to the backyard

As soon as they got out there Ashley spilled at her feeling as if she going to explode

"Y/n is pregnant.. and I think she's keeping the baby. Which is fine. It's her body. It's her baby. But she's not upset... not at all. In fact, she couldn't be happier. She's out of her catatonic state after nearly 3 months.. I'm scared. I think she's still in shock and is maybe a little manic. I don't know what to do she's completely narcotic"

Her rant left her two sisters speechless

"She made me touch it" and this was the breaking point for Ashley

She burst into tears and fell to her knees

Lizzie and Mary Kate were quick to rush to her aide picking her up off the ground and setting her in a patio chair

"Why don't you tell y/n how you feel... be supportive of course but voice your opinion" Lizzie suggested when Ashley's nerves began to settle.

Ashley only nodded. It seemed like the best option right now.

It's a starting place at least.

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That night, like planned with her sister, Ashley sat down with you and attempted to talk you through your manic state

"You have a right to be upset y/n, I just want you to know that you have options. I'll support you either way." Ashley started

"WOULD YOU QUIT, IM NOT UPEST BECAUSE IM PREGNANT" you snapped standing up from your spot on the couch next to Ashley

"you have every right to be upset y/n, a horrible horrible act was done to you-"

"I DONT CARE. I DONT GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO ME" that's when it hit Ashley.

this wasn't about you or your pregnancy at all, it wasn't even about your stepdad.

it was about Charlotte.

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