"I'm not used to being loved . I don't know what to do "
Those words cut like a knife through his heart . He never noticed the lack of love in her life but how could he ? She always smiled and her eyes glowed at every hour of the day
He knew her for a few months . Always in the back of the class , head held down low , glasses on to hide her pretty shining eyes and hair messy
She was nothing out of ordinary, but the second she smiled at him in the hallway and mumbled a little "hello" her cheeks turning a bright shade of pink he knew he was going to fall for her
She radiates innocence , making him want to go back in time when everything was normal and everyone wanted a hand to hold and a warm chest to press their head on at night
She doesn't belong here . Not with her innocent mind and smile , not here where everyone and everything around her is so sinful and selfish , not when her kindness is taken for weakness
"What do you mean ? You've never been hugged before baby?" He would ask and she would shake her head , a few strands of hair tickling the side of his neck
"I did . But not by a man , not like this " she said her holding getting tighter around his waist "Didn't let anyone so close to me before , I was to scared " he goes on making his eyes close
"Scared of what?" He whispers placing lips on her forehead lingering there for a few seconds before pressing another one on her head "Scared of being vulnerable " she replied taking a deep breath afterwards
A part of him felt sorry that she didn't felt much comfort for someone and that she missed the warmth of feeling loved or that she felt scared of letting someone in , but the other part of him was happy . Happy that she let her walls down and that she let him hold her and love on her
Happy that she wasn't scared for once to feel vulnerable
"I'll always keep you safe , and being vulnerable is totally ok " he would add after a few seconds of silence moving his hands up and down her back comforting her
And he did keep her safe . He would kiss her whenever wherever, not caring that people would stare at them . And hold her hand , his thumb stroking her knuckles whenever he felt her hands start to shake reassuring her that she was safe .
He would hug for from behind while they were at a party , his arms around her waist , his head on her shoulder , because despite of the glares he would get for being too "possessive " over her he knew she felt safe knowing he's there , protecting her
At night he would cuddle her and whisper sweet nothings in her ear , his fingers moving gently through her smooth hair , placing kissed on the back of her shoulder and neck and staying up until she would fall asleep
He would keep a hand on her tights whenever they would have dinner either him family because he knew that she would get overwhelmed because of the attention and he wanted -no- needed her to know that he was there in case something startled her .
And most importantly he would keep her safe from other men stare who would make her feel intimidated and eyed her from head to toe .
She was innocent. His angel . And as much he wanted her in every way possible and would love to make her his - he loved her innocence a tad more . So much more that he's willing to put his needs aside and cuddle her a little more .
Because that's what she deserves right now . Being touched in the most innocent ways , getting her used to being touched and being loved and letting her love in the most simple way
Because that's how love is . Is innocent , is simple . It's the small gestures that makes you're heart beat faster in your chest and the feeling you get one your stomach while looking at the love of your life
Simple
Innocent
Just pure love .
Small intimate touch here and there , small eye contact and a small shy smile being shared
