Justin pov
'So Y/n, did you finished your book writing ?' My mom asked Y/n who was feeding Jacob 'Everything is ready, the only thing I have left is to publish it' she said and my parents smiled nodding at her
'The fact that you write about your life, it's just 'wow', I mean you didn't have the best life either ' my mom said and Y/n took a deep breath closing her eyes, nodding after at my mom forcing a smile
'Mom' i warned and she looked at me biting her lip knowing that she messed up by starting a conversation about her past, which was not great at all
She grew up with an alcoholic mother and an abusive father. It was hard for her, but for us as well, seeing ber cry almost everything it was just heartbreaking
Her mother was always drunk, she didn't care about her at all, it was like she didn't even have a child and her dad start abusing her when she was eleven
Seeing her with dark circles under her eyes almost everything week made me feel scared for everything that could have happened if her dad wouldn't have been arrested
She found out later that her mother is in depression and she can't be fixed and that's only because she didn't care about her life or people around her, she didn't care, about the daughter,
Since she was 13 when her dad was arrested and her mother was interned in the hospital because of her mental problems her aunt Lissa, her mother's sister came in her life saving her from the adoption house
Lisa had her custody until she was 18 and started to build up her own lifestyle and she did a pretty good job
She becomes an amazing book and novel writer at the age of 20, only 2 years after she started writing, she paid for her own apartment and never let me do anything for her
Not even after we got married, she never let me pay for the things she needed which were nice knowing that she loves me for me and not for my money but at times was awful, because I wanted to go places with her and buy her things just because
'Ma-ma ' Jacob said waking me up from my thoughts my eyes growing wide hearing his first words 'Yes baby, mama ' Y/n smiled and kissed his temple multiple times 'This is so cute, and I filmed it!' My dad said smiled
Jacob said his first word only beeing seven months which is amazing, most of the kids only mumble things we don't understand. I know for a fact that I said my first word when I was one and Y/n start talking at the age of two
'Mama! ' he said again and looked at Y/n kicking with his legs up and down smiling loud giggles coming out his small lips, sparkles in his big hazel eyes
'You are so cute' Y/n whispered and took Jacob in her arms hugging him tightly, she had tears in her eyes but she blinked them away.
Jason starts whimpering from beside me making me laugh at his reaction of his mom and brother 'Don't need to be jealous, we love you just as much ' I said and took him in my arms placing him on my left leg
'My baby is jealous ' i said and kissed his cheek making my mom smile and laugh 'You were jealous on everyone who was close to me, your dad slept on the couch for days ' my mom laugh
'Moths honey ' my dad said and smiled at my mom. Looking into my right I saw Y/n smiling at my parents, I smiled too but it slowly fades away knowing that maybe we won't be like them in the future
Even though we talked and kissed a few times the last 2 days didn't change much between us, I still feel like she is uncomfortable talking with me about what is bothering her.
Last night I heard her talking with my mom about us moving into a new house, all though I don't know if there will be an 'us' and that just breaks my heart just thinking about us being apart. 'I want to ask you something but only when we'll be upstairs' i said and she nods her head before looking down at Jacob wiping his mouth
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'He still has a fever ?' I asked Y/n who was walking around the room with Jason in her arms who was crying 'He does, I think his molars are growing ' Y/n said and looked at me
'Look inside my bag please, there is a gel for molars ' She said and I nod opening the bag zipper searching for the gel she was talking about 'It was written 'gums' on it Justin ' she said and I found the tube and handed it to Y/n
After she placed the gel on his gums he stopped crying and he was slowly falling asleep with Y/n rubbing his tummy 'It's your mother ok with having Jacob for the night ?' She asked looking at me
'She is baby don't worry, she is happy about it' i said and she stood and checked Jason 's fever again 'What did you want to talk about this morning?' She asked and I looked at her and sigh
'I heard you talking with my mom about moving into another house' i said and she looked at me and nod her head 'That's everything you wanted to talk about ?' She asked and I nod
'No, I just .. I know that I made a mistake a few months ago and you don't feel comfortable living in that house full with lies and secrets, but baby we have so many great memories in that house'
She had a smile on her face and looked at me like I'm stupid or something 'You didn't hear the whole conversation, Justin. ' she said and turned on her side looking right into my eyes
'The agency I'm working for is moving to another country and I will have to move to that country if I want to continue my job' she said and I nod waiting for her to continue
'I didn'tggive them a response yet but I don't know if I want to move to another country and maybe I could work from home' she said and I nod looking down at Jason who was asleep
'Where are they moving to?' I asked and she sighs 'Portugal, Spain, Germany and Canada' she said and I smiled 'We already have a house here baby' i smiled and she nods
'So, why don't you want to move here? Is there something wrong with our house? We can ask people to come to work and finish everything ' i said and she shook her head
'That's not the reason. I have too many bad memories every time I'm here, everything that happened in my childhood flashes back and I can't stop those thoughts ' she said and I grabbed her small hand
'Whatever you decided the baby girl, I won't pressure you in giving them an answer but chose what you think is the best for you and your job, I know you love what you do' i said and she smiled
'If we have to move to Spain or Portugal so be it, we can move there tomorrow if that means you will continue to work at what you love' i said and she smiled
'I will think about it' she said and pulled her hand from my grip and got up 'Where are you going ?' I asked and placed my palm on Jason 's tummy as I heard him whisper in his sleep
'Gonna check on Jacob I have a feeling he is crying ' she said and I rolled my eyes 'He is probably sleeping baby and ..-' i didn't finish what I had to say as I heard Jacob 's crying from my parent's room
'I told you' she said and opened the door his crying louder with every second. 'Ugh, why do you two have to be so close to mommy ?' I asked and smiled at Jason kissing his temple
Y/n came back with Jacob in her arms who was grabbing tightly on her shirt. She placed Jacob on the bed next to his brother, both of them in the middle
After half an hour, the three of them were sleeping peacefully but I didn't fell asleep yet. I love watching them, the three loves of my life so close to me. It feels amazing
