It's been a while since I posted so please read the last parts so you could understand a few things
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.Y/n pov
I don't know how I should feel about all the things I've been through but feeling miserable and dirty
Those are just a few feelings I went through the last couple of months and things aren't going better now either
I feel like I'm overreaching sometimes, I've seen how much Justin is trying to repair every bad thing he has done but I can help it
Every time I look at him I remember her, the woman he tried to leave me for, she was nothing like me and I was nothing like her either
She seemed the perfect woman, the one who could make any man turn their head when she would pass them and make them laugh
Justin used to stay on the couch with me watching a movie with his head on my lap and he had a smile on his face, but I knew that wasn't because of me
That smile was because of her
I still remember when she knocked on my door and presented herself as Justin Bieber's girlfriend, it broke my heart, it really did, but I can't say I didn't expect any of this
She told me they were going on for months now and she can't be the other woman anymore, she can't go out in society beeing seen like the other woman, a woman who destroyed a marriage
She told me that I should leave Justin today because he was thinking of a way to broke up with me, she said he had the divorce papers ready, the only thing that was missing was my signature
And then she left, leaving me in the doorstep feeling broken, destroyed and lied too
I never imagined that the man I married would ever make me go through so much pain and disappointment at the same time, pain because he cheated on me for months and disappointed because he came back to me when his heart and mind were at her
Two days later I found out that I was pregnant and I didn't know if I should cry or smile, I did both, but I couldn't be completely happy since their father was messing around with another woman behind my back
I didn't want to tell him that I was pregnant just yet, I wanted him to stop lying to me first, to have the guts to tell me what he did behind my back, how many times he lied to me, how many times he broke my heart over and over again
But one day I was into the kitchen and I fainted, Justin being worried he called the ambulance and they told him I was pregnant and I fainted because of the stress I've been through the last couple of days and the blood pressure was bigger than was supported to be
When he heard that I was pregnant with his baby he starts crying and at that point, I didn't know what he felt. Was he happy about it? Was he feeling trapped by my side? Was he feeling guilty?
He didn't say anything, all he did was to pull me into a hug, a hug that feels cold, it wasn't warm and it didn't feel like home anymore, it felt wrong, I felt like I was in strangers embrace
'I'm so sorry ' he sobbed into my neck his hands wrapping tighter around the small of my back, his tears we're on my hair and my t-shirt, but that didn't matter, what matters was that he finally realized what he did
We didn't talk until noon when we were at the table and I could cut the tension between us with a knife, his hands we're grabbing tight on his fork and he was sweating
He mumbled a few words I couldn't understand until he broke the silence that surrounded us for a few hours 'I-I cheated on you ' he whispered, his voice full with regret and anger, for what he did
