Marie's POV
I used to believe na lahat ng lalake
manloloko, except for one person
and it's Terrence. I trusted him with all my heart but he left me on the shore in my wedding dress and now I woke up sleeping with a stranger.
tsk! sobrang nakakahiya!
Nagising ako with a neck braces at
nasa ospital na.
Dahan-dahan akong bumangon at nakita ko sa bintana na may kinakausap syang doctor.
I remember everything mula
sa Resto hanggang sa wedding
ceremony. I remember that he
invited me to do the ceremony.
A ceremony na para dapat sa babaeng pakakasalan nya but we're both unlucky kasi pareha kaming iniwan ng taong mahal namin.
Lahat ng hindi ko inaasahan ay nangyari sa iisang gabi lang and I clearly remember what I really did na lang sandali, pumasok na sya
matapos kausapin ang doctor sa
labas, agad ko namang pinunasan
yung luha ko para hindi nya makita.
"Sabi ng doktor, pwede ka na daw lumabas bukas, you just need to rest here tonight" paliwanag nya as he sat beside my bed.
"Makaka-alis ka na, I can manage
from here" tipid kong sagot while
hiding my tears.
"You know... hmm I never slept with any woman without her consent and I never coerce you, what happened between us last night was..."
I already know what he was
about to say kaya hindi ko na sya
pinatapos dahil baka magka mental breakdown pa ako and he doesn't have to pretend that he's a
gentleman.
"I know it was a mistake...so leave me alone at kalimutan nalang natin lahat ng nangyari" dagdag ko pa na pilitang pinapaalis sya.
"It was not a mistake, I was fully
aware of what happened last night." dagdag pa nya.
Sana na namn ay tantanan nya na
ako, I am so embarrassed to myself
already.
"Umalis ka na please..."
pagmamaka-awa ko sakanya.
"I can't leave you like this especially when I know that ...that..I was the first man you slept with" paliwanag nya and my tears continuously fell na kanina ko papinipigilan.
Sabihin nyo nang old fashion ako,
but my virginity is very precious
to me. It was me who seduce him,
thinking he's Terrence.
"Oo na! nakuha mo na ako! kaya
tantanan mo na ako! I... I did it,
thinking you we're Terrence but I'm glad that it's not also him but I'm not happy that I did it with you either!..." I paused catching my breathe out of anger.
"This was suppose to be my gift to the man whom I really love and will cherish me... but... ayun... sa isang iglap... boom! the end!" inis na inis kong paliwanag sakanya.
"How can I leave you like this?
How can I just leave after what
happened?" he said.
"You don't have to stay because
of responsibility... just leave"
pagmamaka-awa ko ulit.
Then he took his wallet out at may
inabot na business card sa akin.
"Call me if you need anything, Ill
surely compensate you" he said and it really pissed me kaya agad kong hinablot ang unan ko and threw it to him.
"Im not a product na babayaran
mo after you broke it! just get lost! PLEASE!!" bulyaw ko sakanya hanggang sa tuluyan na syang umalis.
Kinabukasan maaga pa akong
na-discharge sa hospital. I booked
the earliest flight para makauwi na
ng Pilipinas.
Pagdating ko sa bahay, it was lifeless,they have probably gone to work kaya dumiretso na ako sa kwarto ko at inayos ang mga gamit ko.
While organizing my things, I saw Terrence photo on my dresser table.
It reminded me of what he did to me kaya agad akong kumuha ng kahon at nilagay doon lahat ng gamit that reminds me of him.
All the clothes that I wore during our dates, gifts and everything.
After clearing 90% of my wardrobe,I just realize that we've really been through a lot, pero umalis parin sya without giving me any reasons why.
A box is not enough para ilagay ang dapat itapon, so I just threw it out on my window to burn it later.
After throwing everything out, I headed downstairs dala-dala ang isang bote ng whiskey at photo album full of our memories together.
"Ma'am, may problema po ba?"
Tanong ng housemaid namin dala
ang mga gamit na tinapon ko.
"Bakit hawak mo yan? I already
threw it outside!" inis na inis kong sagot.
"Mam, mahal to mam" sagot nya
naman.
"I don't care... Just leave it there!"
"Can I at least have those dresses?"some girl suddenly butted in.
Lumingon ako and I saw a stranger
standing outside Drake's room.
"Sino ka?" tanong ko naman.
"Im with Drake" sagot nya naman.
I'm sure she's one of Drake's fuck
buddy.
Drake is actually my brother and he's always bringing girls home.
"So can I have those?" tanong nya
ulit.
"Of course you can, but Ill burn you too" I said sarcastically.
"Ate naman! wag mo namang
tratuhin si Sandra ng ganyan!
she's my guest!" Drake shouted
nakakalabas palang sa kwarto nya,
only wearing his boxer shorts. tsk!
"Get that bitch out of here then!"
sigaw ko naman and he just drag the girl back to his room.
Lumabas na ako at hindi nagdalawang isip na buhusan ito
ng whiskey at sinindihan.
I hope burning all these things will also wipe all my pain away.
Nakaupo lang ako sa harap ng sinusunog kong gamit, drinking my whiskey while Scanning the photo album at isa-isa itong sinusunog kasabay ng ibang gamit na unti-unti ring tinutupok ng apoy.
Ilang sandali, my father suddenly
came at may dala-dalang fire
extinguisher at agad pinatay ang
apoy. He obviously came from work.
"Just leave it alone!!" I said at
pilit na inaagaw sakanya ang fire
extinguisher.
"Are you Crazy!! Are you planning to burn the house down?? Dahil lang sa iisang lalaki?" He said na ipinagtataka ko.
I never told anyone about what
happened to me yet, but He clearly
knows something about it.
"Did you sent me your spies again??"Tanong ko at napatahimik nalang sya.
"May kinalaman ka ba sa nangyari?"Tanong ko ulit, suspecting him why Terrence left me.
I hope he did so that I can still find a reason to win him back, but...
"I already gave up na paghiwalayin kayo, but this time, it was his choice at wala akong kinalaman dito! Kaya huwag mong isisi sakin if you failed to handle your man!" Paliwanag nya.
Bumalik nalang ako sa kwarto ko
reflecting to what I've done.
Facing the mirror, seeing myself broken really pains me and my tears Continuously fell.
This is not me anymore.
One day we're still good and happy
and one day he just disappeared on the day of our wedding.
Saan ba ako nagkamali? Saan ako
nagkulang? I really don't know why and my mind is about to explode trying to figure out the reason why he left me and because of that I did something embarrassing to myself..
sleeping with a man that I just met.
I used to criticize my brother for
fucking girls that he just met but I
ended up like him. Karma is really a bitch.
