Jatp One Shots

Undeserving Part 3

Tw underage drinking/getting drunk suicidal thoughts and thoughts of self harm

Alex's POV

I arrived at Reggie's house first. We waited for Luke to get here and as usually he's late.

"Well what do you wanna do until Luke gets here?" Reggie asks.

Just then Reggie's dad comes down the stairs looking put together, not like you would be for work but how you would for a date. I thought he wasn't leaving until 8?

Reggie sighs. I feel bad for him, his dad keeps lying to him about this woman he's seeing and I see it in his face he doesn't like that he's dating again. It's understandable, his mom only died a year and a half ago and he's never really talked about it much. I don't think he fully got over it.

"Alright, you know the rules Reggie, if you need anything don't be afraid to call." His dad says. "I promise it's okay to interrupt. And Alex, same for you too don't be afraid to call if something happens."

"Dad!" Reggie says. "Just go. I'll be fine, promise."

His dad leaves and Reggie lets out a sigh.

"He's doesn't have a work thing, does he?" I ask.

"I am pretty sure he has a date. With the same lady." Reggie says. "I just don't get why he had to lie, I mean we steady know that's he's been seeing and texting her and now he's leaving early and it's just not fair. He could tell us the truth."

"I mean at least he's not going out with someone random." I say hoping it will make it better.

"That's not the point." He sighs. "I don't know what the point is...it's just, I don't see why he has to lie."

"I mean at least he's happy, right?" I say. "Maybe you should try to be happy for your dad?"

"It's not about that!" Reggie says. "I want to be happy for him, it doesn't matter what I think or that I think it's too soon or I think he's trying to replace my mom, it doesn't matter how I feel about it because it's his life and he can do what he wants I just wish he would tell me the truth!"

I don't quite know how to respond to that.

"I-Im sorry. Just forget I said anything. It's nothing, yeah I'm happy for him." Reggie says.

I was about to say something, well I was trying to think of something to say, when there's a knock on the door.

"That must be Luke." Reggie says. "I'll get it." Reggie let's Luke in and we all agree to watch a movie.

Reggie's POV

I don't know why I opened my mouth about my dad and his date to Alex. I should have just said nothing because now I just feel bad for feeling the way I feel about it.

When Luke got here we turned on a movie but I was barely paying attention. I felt so empty, and I just needed to feel something anything. I start digging at the skin on my arm but it does nothing. I need some adrenaline pumping through my viens.

"I'll be back." I say heading into the kitchen. I look back out into the room where Alex and Luke were sitting and they were still watching the movie. I have to make sure they don't see me. I get down some rum from the alcohol cabinet a pour myself a glass and take a sip.

The stuff tastes nasty...like hand sanitizer. It burns my tongue and I feel my eyes water but I force myself to swallow. I jug it down and my stomachs begins to ache already. Fuck. Why did I do this again?

It's fine. Soon I'll feel better as the alcohol kicks in. In fact, a little more won't hurt will it? I pour myself another class and force all of it down my throat ignoring the awful taste.