I don’t really know what’s going to happen next. I just realized that my feet dragged me to where she is. I can see the difference in the situation now. Kung dati, siya ang pumupunta sa bahay ko, ngayon, ako naman ang nasa bahay niya just to see her and talk to her.
“What are you doing here?” she asked coldly.
I sighed in defeat. Ano nga ba naman ang ginagawa ko dito?
“Pwede ba kitang maka-usap?” I asked hoping na papayag siya.
“I’m sorry, but did I hear it right? Gusto mo akong makausap?” she asked in disbelief.
I looked at her intently. “Please Jade. Let’s talk.”
“Ano pa bang gusto mong pag usapan natin ha?!” she yelled. “O baka naman gusto mong tanungin kung bakit nandito pa ako?”
“Sorry ha, tatanga-tanga kasi ako!” she continued. “But don’t worry, di na kita papaki-alamanan.”
“Jade, hindi yan..” she cut me off.
“Then what?!” she snapped. “Tatanungin mo ako kung kailan ang alis ko, para magpaparty ka na?”
“Don’t worry, bukas na bukas, wala na ako dito.” Dagdag niya tapos tumalikod. “This will be the last time we’ll see each other, Torres.”
And with that she went to her room. Naiwan akong tulala sa may pool area. I feel so weak and stupid.
She didn’t slap me. But her last words were like a slap on my face. Kung dati, siya yung gumagawa ng paraan para makasama ako, maka-usap, pero ngayon, I think the table’s turned. Ako na naman ngayon ang gumagawa ng mga yun.
“I’m sorry for hurting you all along Jade.” I mumbled. “This time, I’m keeping my promise. I’ll make it up to you.”
“I made things complicated from the very start. Pero hindi ko na hahayaang magiging ganito ka gulo ang lahat ng ito.” I heaved out a heavy sigh. “I’ll fix everything.”
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I just can’t figure out what’s better, having to choose, or having no choice at all. Para lang yang shopping. You choose between two things, let’s say two different bags, pero parehong gusto mo. There are times you have no choice but to choose just one, and you really have to think about it well, dahil alam mong once you choose one, you’ll be losing the other.
Ganun ang situation ko ngayon. Once the time would come, na isa sa kanila ni Thom or ni Kief ang magtatanong sa akin kung sino sa kanila ang pipiliin ko, I might be stuck in the same situation. Ayokong mamili sa kanila. It’s not because I want to keep them both for myself, but because they both are too important to me. At ayokong mawala lahat ng importante sa akin, thus, ayokong may mawala sa kanila.
I have a feeling that this Saturday, possibleng mangyari ang kinatatakutan ko. Knowing Thomas, he would probably ask me that thing again. This time, wala na siguro akong takas. Pero hindi naman pwedeng di ako sumipot sa party niya, ganun na rin ang sa kay Kief.
I sighed as I plopped on my bed with the shopping bags I was holding. After my classes, nag punta agad ako ng mall para makapamili nung gift ko sa dalawa. Actually, nahirapan ako sa pamimili kasi nga baka di nila magustuhan. And gaya nga nung sinabi ko, choosing is one of the hardest thing that I’ve been doing in my entire life, kaya naman sobra akong nahirapan.
“Grace, sooner or later you’ll have to choose between the two.” I mumbled to myself. “Sino nga ba sa kanila ang pipiliin mo?”
Umupo ako mula sa pagkakahiga. I fished out my phone in my bag and scrolled through our photos.
“Si Thom ba na niligtas ang buhay mo at mahal na mahal ka matagal na?” I muttered. “O si Kief na ginusto mo sa simula pa at ngayon mahal ka na?”
I closed my eyes and hoped for wisdom.
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I know it’s too gay to believe on signs. Pero papatulan ko nalang yun. I have no other choice left but to hold on to that. Ayoko na ring mag hope for nothing. I just too scared if she’ll reject me. Kaya kung ano man ang mangyayari sa sign na hihilingin ko, yun na yun. Ako nalang yung lalayo, at least hindi na siya maguguluhan pa.
“Manong, baliw ka ba?” tanong ni Thirdy.
“Thirdy, walang mawawala kung maniniwala ako sa mga signs.” Sagot ko tapos inayos ko ang sarili ko.
It’s my birthday, which means, birthday rin ni Thomas. This time, I asked for a sign. Isang sign na pwedeng magbago ng lahat between me and Grace.
“Anong wala? Meron manong! Meron!” sabi ni Thirdy. “Mawawala sa iyo si ate Grace!”
I sighed in defeat. Tama siya, mawawala sa akin si Grace, pero it would be destined. Kung mangyari man ang sign na hiniling ko, ibig sabihin lang, para sa akin talaga siya, but if not, then I just have to let her go.
“Alam ko.” Sagot ko kay Thirdy. “But I surrender everything to fate.”
“Eh paano kung matraffic siya on the way? Eh di panigurado malelate talaga siya!” sabi ni Thirdy. “Manong naman eh! Wag kang ganyan!”
I might be so silly to believe on signs, pero this is the only thing I could do to make things for me and Grace as well. 6:30 yung time na sinabi ko kay Grace. Hindi ko alam kung kaninong party siya una pupunta. Basta ang hiniling kong sign, pag wala pa si Grace by 10 sa bahay ko, she must be with Thomas, thus, I have to let her go. But if not, eh di siyempre, magiging masaya ako, kasi alam kong kakampi ko ang fate kung magkataon.
“That’s stupid manong!” kumento ni Thirdy.
I smiled at my brother’s reaction. Gaya ni Dani, si Thirdy, ganun na din si mom at dad, gusto nila si Grace. They told me how they saw the change in me simula nung makilala ko raw si Grace. I believe tama sila. Malaki ang pinagbago ko. Kung dati, I take things seriously, ngayon, I can see to it na nag-eenjoy ako sa ginagawa ko, not because I have to, but because I want to.
“If we’re destined, then everything’s going to fall on its proper place, Thirdy.” Sabi ko sa kanya sabay gulo ng buhok.
“Ay ewan ko sa iyo manong!” sabi niya. “Bababa na ako.”
I just nodded at him then he left. I looked at myself in the mirror and sighed. I just hope things would get into its proper place.
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AT DAHIL..............................
>tinamad akong pumasok sa PE class ko
>Valentines day ngayon
>Wala akong date (sighs)
MAY UD!!!!!! Mehehehehe
-anyway, nagkamali ako sa timeline. finals pala muna bago yun bday nila. but anyway, baguhin nalang natin.
-sorry kung medyo lame.Yun lang. kbye.
so yun na nga, bday na ng dalawa, destined nga kaya si Grace at Kiefer? ABANGAN!
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