Warming: s*icidal thoughts
Just gonna break the ice a little and say I feel miserable. I don't know why but I do, I wanna feel better and be more happy again but I can't. I don't know what's wrong with me but I just feel extremely upset and I'm losing motivation. I don't even finish drawings and end up procrastinating, I don't know if I wanna take a break or just 'try' to stay online.
I'm tired of having to put up with a fake happy face, I feel vulnerable as fuck and I'm in a bad place right now by that I mean I'm just seeking comfort but I don't know from who. I feel like a lost idiot expressing their feelings to random people online who I'm pretty sure don't care. I don't even tell my friends or family how I actually feel, I don't have a girlfriend/loved one either to tell them. And I feel like if I just bottle up my emotion and not tell anyone, I may end up having a break down.
For a while now I've been feeling s*icidal. The idea of 'just one jump or just one hit from a car can make everything miserable end' has been stuck in my head for a while now but I push myself to not think any of that and think 'hey you have people who care about you!' or 'life will get better! There's so much you can do!' And I'm scared that I'll get pushed to the point that I will actually try and do it.
Forgive me for covering up how I've really been feeling and bottling up my emotion for so long. I just want to put it out there before I end up doing something stupid.
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