Tejran Os-yeh Dooriyaan

Realization 5

Continue from last part,

Rashmi comes to bedroom and unnecessary picks fight at him, then others also joined her.
But karan didn't say anything. He is not even listen to them. He is in his thoughts. He didn't care about them.
That's why after some time, they gets irritated and go from there.

Karan looks at her bed and his eyes go to the ♥ pillow .he takes it and sleep in her bed. And thinks about one of the conversation.
K: tujhe yaad hai Ek baar tune bola tha jab tak koi chiz hoti nhi hai, aap vo feel nhi kar sakte, ur right ladoo, now I can feel akele rahna iss ghar main kya hota hai?  I think I deserve this. Maine bhi tere saath bahat galat kiya na, plz forgive me.

Flashback starts,

This is after the Christmas party, teja is in her bed ,she is hurt.
karan goes and back hug her. She is controlling her tears.
K: ladoo .
He rolled his fingers on her face.
T: plz, mat kar, karan, mera sar dard ho raha hai.
She tried hard to control but from her voice he understands she is controlling herself.
He massaged her head, but she stopped him.
K: kya hua? 
T: kuch nhi.
And she get up from his bed.
K: kaha jaa rahi hai.
T: bathroom
He goes behind her. He can heard teja murmuring something but it's not clear. And he listens her sobbing.
Then after some time, she came out and goes to bedroom, not even looking at him.
K: ise kya hua, achanak itni weird kyu behave kar rahi hai? 
He again goes to bedroom and saw her sleeping in her bed. But he wants to hug her. So he goes to her bed. Teja feels it so she opened her eyes
Her eyes is blood red. He can see the pain in her eyes. He don't know what to tell.
K: ladoo, I know Tera dil main bahat kuch hai but tu bol nhi rahi.
T: how does it matter to u, karan? 
K: what do u mean? 
T: I always handle things by myself, toh let it be. Leave me alone
K: u want to stay away from me? 
She give him a bitter smile.
T: tu mere pass tha hi kab, jo tujhe khud se dur karungi.
K: ladoo, I'm always there for u. Aur agar tu game...
T: no, game ki baat hi nhi hai. And ur never there for me when I needed. Pahle k kuch incidents main tha jab ki hum relationship main nhi the, but uske baad Main hamesha se akeli hi rahi hu.
K: (in irritating tone ) yaar ,tujhe hamesha aisa kyu lagta hai ki tu akeli hai, tu kya dikhana chahti hai.
T: main kuch dikhana nhi chahti, tujhe jo sochna hai soch, because ab toh tu mere bare main kya sochta hai mujhe Pata chal chuka hai, and it hurts but tujhe kya fark padta hai, jo chize face karta hai sirf usse hi vo feel hota hai,
so I'm not expecting anything from u now. 

Karan s heart is beating faster as he knows what is coming towards him.
K: teja.
T: I'm not blaming u, I'm saying may be u can't feel that ,Because u r not in my condition. U don't know Ki yaha pe akele rahna kya hota hai. Jab sab log aapki har chiz ko judge karte hai specially the one jisse apne kabhi apna samjha Ho.
Karan feels like his heart is stopped there.
K: what do u mean by kabhi apna samjha Ho.
T: karan, Why it is always I got love at ur convenience, and when ur not conscious, why do I have to always come.
Main hurt hu yaha par, at least baat karke Ek closure toh kar do. U know what there is a hope jab tak mujhe affect ho raha hai, pata hai, kyunki jis din mujhe affect hona band Ho jayega, uske baad Phir band hi ho jayega aur mujhe lagta hai tere saath waisa Ho raha hai .
Karan don't want to loose her. He feels like some part of his body is torn. His heart is beating faster.
K: tu mujhse dur jaa rahi hai?  He said in trembling voice.
She didn't answer. He repeat the question.
He is literally shivering.
T: karan, kya hua? 
He looked at her with a 😱  face.
K: plz, tu mujhse dur mat jana. I'm sorry, tu Chahe toh mujhe dant le, thapaad mar de ,par... Don't back off
Let's.... let's sleep over it.
There is a long silence between them. He hugged her tightly like she is going somewhere. He lift up his face and leaned towards her to see her face
She is closing her eyes, looking tired. Pale .
K: teja...
He can't see her like that.he lift her a bit off and made her head rest in his chest. And hugs her tightly. He had tears in his eyes. They can feel their heart beats.

K: ladoo, I'm sorry, I will not let u  feel alone, because ur not. I know what it feels to be alone, to judge by everyone. I have always face it.
He looks at her . She is sleeping and holding his hand.
T: umm...
K: itni jaldi kaise so gayi.
He patted her head . Now he is relaxed that she is not going anywhere. She is only upset with him. And he will make sure to not hurt her again.

Flashback ends.

K: par Maine hurt kar diya na tujhe .aur isbar Bahat jyada. I'm sorry ladoo, if u r watching. Main tujhe hurt nhi Karna chahta tha, par main gusse main kuch bhi bol deta hu, I didn't mean that. Tu plz mujhse dur mat jana.

Then karan started feeling restless and  goes to green sofa, He is looking at the sky. And tears rolled down on his cheeks. He hugs the heart pillow.
He gets all memories which they spent together. But now he feels something missing, a part of him is missing.  He misses her antics to get attention, her baby voice, her hug . Her conversation

But someone is noticing him from the gym.
Sm1: I know ur missing teja, I don't know why I feel bad seeing at u, but Pata nhi.... I hope u realize how much teja loves you? 

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