Toru Oikawa made the decision to stop taking to his childhood friend after her out of the blue love confession.
Even after his apology a year later, she just can't seem to get over it
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-TORU OIKAWA X READER
HAIKYUU FANFICTION
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❝I couldn't live with myself if I let something bad like that happen to you❞
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I can't really remember much. I knew I was drunk, very drunk. Stupid enough to walk home because I didn't feel like paying for a taxi. My body struggled to walked straight as I made my way home. My mind only sobered up when I felt a pain in my nose and the blood trickle down onto my lip.
I can't remember what I said to the guy. I think he asked to kiss me. I remember laughing and making a shitty joke about him never having a chance or that he was ugly. I think he was far more drunk than I was but I'm not saying that as an excuse for him. If I wasn't drunk I would've been more responsible. I'm not invincible, I shouldn't be brave and snap back at men I don't know the nature of. Whatever. Maybe if I hit back, he'll hurt as bad as me.
There is a throbbing feeling in my nose. Maybe it's broken. The pain distracts me so much, I don't notice there's someone beside me shouting. He's really loud and has a hand on my shoulder. The man that punched me looks scared now. It's probably because the guy with his hand on my shoulder is much taller than he is. It really didn't take much for me to realise it's Oikawa speaking. Despite my mind feeling hazy and the pain in my nose hurting so bad I want to throw up, I could recognise his voice anywhere. I feel that pathetic feeling again, that dreading one I felt when I spoke to him at the wedding, when he's around me.
I don't like when boys like him protect me. They always use it as a way to brag or a way to make it like I owe them something but maybe I'm giving him too much of a hard time. After thinking of him so negatively for so long, I think I made my mind only able to characterise him as someone awful. He is helping me after all.
He doesn't stop shouting, even when I put my hands on his chest and try to push him away. I feel like a stupid teen from a kids movie again. I feel like I should start shouting something along the lines of "this isn't you!" in a terrible over acting voice. I don't understand why being with him makes me feel so childlike, so stupid and naive.
My mind is so hazy, I didn't even notice how scared I was until a relaxed feeling washes over me once Oikawa finally cooperates and walks away from the man. I think I was scared Oikawa would hurt him. Much more than he hurt me and much more than I could ever hurt him. I didn't like Oikawa but I think I would lose my mind if he got in trouble for hurting a person over something they did to me.
I can feel his heavy breathing, his chest rising up and down against my hands. I can't comprehend why he's so angry about that man. Part of me wants to believe it's because he does still care about me the way he did but I don't want to give myself false hope. He might just have a hero complex.
