Elliot and Olivia have decided to go see Dr. Lindstrom together as a way to use a third party in their discussions about the past and find a way to move forward, but both of them refuse to start the conversation or take the sole blame for everything
___________________________________________Peter Lindstrom sits across in a chair from Elliot and Olivia who were both on the couch...well, at separate ends of the couch
"You both realize that even though you don't speak, you will still have to pay right?" Peter said and watched the two for a reaction
"Thats such a shrink thing to say" Elliot said quietly
Olivia looks at him "do not be rude, he's here to help" she said quickly
Elliot motions towards the Peter "by all means Liv, you have the floor" he said
"I have nothing to say, im-" Olivia said before Elliot cut her off
"No you never do" Elliot mumbled
Peter looks at Elliot "what does that mean Elliot?" He asked
"Yeah, what the hell does that mean?" Olivia asked
Elliot scoffs lightly "you don't talk, all you do is go back and forth between complaining that I don't try enough or that I'm trying too hard" he said
"Trying for what?..Olivia?" Peter asked in atempt to get Olivia talking
Olivia looks at Peter, she sighs "for me to trust him again" she said as she crossed her arms "he left for 12 years, remember when I told you that, 12 years, not a word, not a text,an email, a letter..well, i wont bring that up" she added
Elliot chuckles softly as he slides his hand down his leg trying to remain calm
Olivia looks at him "what's with the chuckle ?" She asked
"You won't talk to me about our problems, but you talk to a shrink about us?" Elliot said and looked at her
Olivia stares at him, a million responses come to her, she shrugs "12 years Elliot" she said quietly
Peter watches the two as he shifts in his seat "why don't we open that up, why did you not respond to her?" He asked
Elliot rolls his eyes "there was a lot going on" he said knowing she wouldn't take that answer
Olivia watched him, she turns on the couch to fully face him "for 12 years?" She asked
Elliot nods as he looked at her, trying, begging her to understand
Peter watched the two carefuly "Olivia, you keep asking why he didn't reach out all those years, but why didn't you?" He asked
Olivia takes a deep breath as she looked at Peter "I did, for weeks I called, I emailed, I even dug out my old pager and paged him...I did it a million times a days, for weeks, and then I just stoped" she said and looked at Elliot
Elliot closes his eyes slowly "I got all of them..." he said and looked at Olivia "I read every email, every text..I threw my pager away long before i left, so I didn't get those, but I listened to every voicemail" he added
Olivia shakes her head "so, what you just didn't care?" She said as her voice cracked on the last word, she swollows the lump in her throat making her want to cry, she will not cry in front of him
Elliot glanced at Peter for a moment, not wanting to speak his feelings in front of him
"Ignore him, El, answer the question" Olivia said quickly
Peter stayed silent as he watched
Elliot sighs as he shifts on the couch to face Olivia "you really think I didnt care? Olivia I cared too much, I spent days pushing Kathy away, pushing the kids away, I spent days listening your voice mails over and over just hear your voice" he said
Olivia scrunched her eyebrows "but you didn't respond..not once" she said
Elliots jaw clenched slightly "I couldn't" he said
Olivia shurgs "why? you were my best friend, we told each other everything" she said
Elliot shakes his head "not everything" he said quietly
Peter goes to speak just as Olivia cuts him off
"what does that mean?" Olivia asked
Elliot stared at her, just like he did in Kathleens apartment durring their intervention, trying to figure a way out, trying to not blurt out what he really wants to say
Olivia watched him as she leaned forward and grabbed his hand "please..talk to me" she whispered
Elliot took a deep breath "you really want to do this here?" He asked
Olivia squeezes his hand softly "i want the truth, you always had enough respect for me to give it to me straight, why is this different?" she said
Elliot keeps his eyes locked on her "I loved you.." he said quickly but calmly
Peter tilts his head as he glanced at Olivia
Olivias eyes winded, he's not drowning in grief this time, he's not drugged this time, he's not about to die this time
Elliot moves his thumb against her hand softly "I left because I loved you, and I didn't want you to loose your job because of me, that part was true. I didn't call or respond because the second I heard your voice I would want to come home, and coming home would only ruin what we had, I loved you too much to be around you" Elliot said and glanced down quick when he felt her pull her hand back
Olivia stays quiet as she watched him
"You wanted the truth Liv, that's it..I loved you then, I love you now, thats why this is different" Elliot said
Olivia remembers the words Peter had said to her durring her last session, to see if theres anything there with Elliot or move on
Elliot chuckles softly "now look who won't open up" he joked
Olivia glances up as the alarm Peter had set went off
"That's our time...you both are more than welcome to schedule another session...or..my advic, go get a coffee after you leave here" Peter said standing from his chair
Olivia stays sitting, dumbfounded but weirdly excited
Elliot glances at Olivia before he stands and reaches a hand out towards Peter "I apologize for being rude before" he said
Peter shakes his hand "not a problem, it comes with the job" he said
Elliot looks down at Olivia "let's go get a coffee Liv" he said taking Peter's advice
Olivia nods as she stood up
Peter watches Elliot head out the door "Olivia" he said quickly
Olivia stoped at the doorframe and looked back at him "I know, I'll call for another session" she said
Peter shook his head "no not that. My advice to you from last week still stands. open yourself up to the thought of being happy Olivia, to the real possibility of it...it might be waiting on the other side of that door" He said
Olivia smiles slightly before she left, with Elliot, for coffee. The first of many
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EO oneshots//1998//2022
Fanfictiononeshots for Elliot and Olivia based on cross over episodes, random ideas, pictures I find, or songs. I'm gonna try to stick to 5-600 words per oneshot so they're not too long or too short