Maybe this TIME

IV. Dreams continued

It was the month of October, a year after the graduation, it's my year! I am turning 18 and of course most of my HS classmates were invited.

And I was already enrolled sa isang university somewhere in the North, with a course of BSE.

I was thinking, who will be the participants in the program, most especially sa candles and roses?.

At dahil nga mahal na mahal ko mga HS classmates ko most of them ay participants including my four bffs, Khael, Ford, and other boys for the roses, and other classmates

I suddenly remembered Chris, I don't know where he is that time, walang communication, I texted him many times but walang response, talagang hindi na daw siya nakita after graduation. I also searched for him on different social media, but not a single trace of him was found.

Heto ang mahirap sa taong walang kaibigan, napakahirap hanapin. I admit, after a year never ako sumukong hanapin siya and I was hoping makita ko siya sa debut ko. That was my only wish during that time.

I sent invitations sa lahat ng mga classmates ko and even sa mga taong malapit sakanila, just hoping na makita o mabasa niya yung invitation.

Isang taon na ang lumipas pero siya padin, I still love him, I still want to see him. Kahit malaman ko lang sana kung okay siya that will be enough.

At ayun na nga, It was October 12, 2011. It will be my first day of being a woman. A lady who will be free to fall in love and make decisions in life.

During my entrance I told the musician to play a certain song, it's his favorite song. Nakita ko sa slum notes ko, naglagay pala siya ng details niya doon at I learned that he loves to sing that song whenever he thinks of me.

As I walk on the carpet with my cousin as my escort, I saw my former classmates on one side, ang dami nila, they were all clapping, they dressed well and they were so happy seeing me again, I was looking for him again, hoping to see him at the back or in an area where there are no people. It's really his asset, he's very dashing kahit nasa likuran o kahit nakatago.

I was hopeless again. I sat on my chair like a princess, dressed with a ball gown and a very high heels, I still have with me the rose he gave me a year ago, it turned brown already, actually patay na pero never ko tinapon. It was placed beside me along with other fresh flowers.

I told myself kailangan kong enjoyin tong moment na ito dahil once in a lifetime and I have my classmates here , some of them came from far places pa.

So thankfully, I convinced myself to enjoy that night and I really did.

My friends gave their wishes and messages during the 18 Candles, they enlightened my path as I go forward for my future and blew away my fears for the coming journey.

Here comes Khael for the 5th rose, we danced gracefully and reminisce the past, we laughed as we remember his kasupladuhan sa akin during our gardening. Tinawanan nalang namin ang aming mga frustrations as he already knew na crush ko siya noon.

I suddenly asked him

"Naalala mo yung nakaaway mo noon? Yung sinabihan kang weird? " sabay tumawa ng malakas

"Ah oo, si badboy Chris, asan na kaya yun? Never ko nang nakita ang anino ng taong yun"

"Kaya nga ee, siya lang ang classmate nating wala dito aside from sa mga galing malalayo, umasa pa man din akong kumpleto tayo"

"Ba't mo kasi hinahanap, nandito naman ako"

Kapag naririnig ko ito nung HS kami dina ako makapagsalita sa kilig but now it sounded like a joke to me hehe