To be Hated (ON HOLD)

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POV: Severus Snape<3

"I'm sorry." I say, coming to a stop.

Lily looks up from her position at the base of the tree, tearing her eyes away from her transfiguration book.

"What?" She asks, genuinely confused.

I sigh and sit down in the grass next to her, hesitant to dirty my robes.

"I'm sorry." I repeat, feigning exasperation.

Lily furrows her eyebrows but smiles nonetheless.

"Why?"

I raise an eyebrow.

"For being so rude to you yesterday, on the train?" I tell her.

"Oh! That! No need to be sorry Sev, I was being rather nosey. And something was obviously wrong, I shouldn't have pressured you to tell me.

"I know you'll tell me when you're ready, we're bestfriends." She grins.

I smile slightly at that.

"And besides, I've forgiven you for much worse before." She jokes, smirking at me.

I grimace, remembering the 'incident'.

I had called her that terrible word in misdirected anger, and yet she still found it in herself to forgive me.

I smile softly.

"You're the bestfriend I could have, aren't you Lily Evans."

She grins widely.

"Damn right I am, and don't you forget it!" She giggles, winking at me.

This draws a laugh from me.

"What's got you all happy, Snivellus?!" Black's voice speaks up.

I look over to see him and the rest of the marauders walking toward us.

As quickly as I can with my injuries, which honestly isn't that fast, I get to my feet and grip my wand.

"Get lost." Lily demands, standing up as well.

"Oh now Evans, why are you defending a snake like Snivellus?" Potter sneers at me.

"You're one to talk, Potter." Lily snaps back .

"Hexing everyone who disagrees with you just because you ca-" Potter cuts her off.

"Not everyone! Only the ones who deserve it!" He half yells, glaring at me.

"You deserve this you nasty little freak!"

Remembering my father's words I almost flinch.

"What has he done to deserve this!?" Lily all but shrieks.

Potter opens his mouth to answer when I beat him to it.

"Nothing." I mutter, glaring down at my feet.

"I haven't done anything." I hiss lowly, not sure if they can even hear me.

"Anything, to deserve the life I got."

I say through clenched teeth.

I'm so tired.

Squeezing my eyes shut I will back tears.

I will not let them see my weakness.

"Sev?" Lily whispers.

I open my eyes to see her reaching her hand out to touch my shoulder.